got up early this morning with an uneasy feeling inside. couldn't figure why the uneasy feeling. but as the day pass by, i soon found out why.
first, my dear prince wasn't in the mood today...one of his emo day...when we were friends, i understood him, i would leave him alone to cool down...but now that i'm with him, i worry...why is that so?? why the sudden change??
somehow, his emo day made my day emo too...not really emo but just felt that everything isn't right...yet, i still trust Him.
as i'm online in the afternoon, my twin sister came to chat with me. just the other day...she gave me 2 good news...i was extremely happy bout it. but then, problem just had to come up again. and while i was driving to church for youth prayer meeting, she called...talked to her while i was driving...and another disappointment...anger inside too...wanting to help, yet it's way beyond my limits...the funny part was that...all this years, i've been praying for her...but i dont know why, i messaged her asking for permission to pray for her..this was what i sent to her...
-----> Hang in there, girl...will be praying for you..you let one right?? now only ask you.. ^.^
somehow...i felt that i should let her know i'm praying for her...probably it's the Holy Spirit's prompting..come to think bout it now...i sense that the day Heaven will be celebrating her salvation is coming soon...i'll continue to pray for her and have faith that she will soon not only be my twin sister...but be my sister in Christ too...because of Him..we'll be a family...and no one can ever break that bond between us... =)
speaking bout youth prayer meeting...i have to admit that i didn't want to go today...was trying to find an excuse not to go...tried calling tsyr tsyr ( the other girl with me )...but couldnt get her..and i usually fetch her from tuition..so, in the end had to go...it didnt go as plan...in the sense that we didn't follow the prayer item...but i have to say that..it is His plan for me to go whether i feel like it or not...i feel blessed and encouraged by her...got refreshed too by the Holy Spirit...in a way that the passion and strength renewed...
came back from youth, called my dear prince...supposed to be a serious talk...but hmm...he's back to normal...so...it's ok...just talking to him for that few minutes...gave me extra strength... ^.^ guess it's all part of His plan for me to have that uneasy feeling to realise a few things and gaining back that passion for Him...
therefore...it is indeed a refreshing time...but it's not done...that's why my blog title is refreshing process...i may feel tired, i may feel fed up, i may feel like giving up, i may feel bored of it...but it is by His grace that i can go on with it withough giving up, gaining strength from him, and finding joy at the same to serve Him....
after all.... GOD IS NOT FINISHED WITH ME YET!!! =)
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