On 20 Oct, the princess went back to her hometown simply because her uncle was in charge of her secondary school reunion dinner. It was held in MITC (Malacca International Trade Center), used 1/3 of the exhibition hall with 180 tables.
At the beginning, the princess was relunctant to attend. She didn't want to meet up with her ex-schoolmates as well...that's another story. But in the end, she had a blast of her time. Met up with her teachers who used to teach her. Some could even remember her name..especially her form 4 class teacher, Mr Choo. Her form 5 English teacher also remembered her. So does her sofball trainer. It was so fun for the princess to catch up with her teachers.
All in all, the food was delicious. The events were ok. And last but not least, she thank God she had a great time there. =)
TIRED YET STILL MOVING ON
The tiredness of the whole event is starting to 'kick in' in the princess' life. How much longer has she to wait for it to fade? But the question is, does the princess wants it to fade?
It's no more a matter of hiding the feelings inside but to express it out in a different perspective. A perspective that is so new to the princess. A perspective from up above and not from down under.
Somehow, it does tire the princess at times. And at those times, she just breakdowns and cry her heart out to her Daddy. Because only her Daddy knows what she really is going through.
Since the princess can rely on her Daddy, all the more she will move on. She will not take a step backward..but to take a step forward and let her Daddy reach to her.
It's her Daddy's heartbeat now that she's after. To know His will and execute it in obedience. Because
It's no more a matter of hiding the feelings inside but to express it out in a different perspective. A perspective that is so new to the princess. A perspective from up above and not from down under.
Somehow, it does tire the princess at times. And at those times, she just breakdowns and cry her heart out to her Daddy. Because only her Daddy knows what she really is going through.
Since the princess can rely on her Daddy, all the more she will move on. She will not take a step backward..but to take a step forward and let her Daddy reach to her.
It's her Daddy's heartbeat now that she's after. To know His will and execute it in obedience. Because
Obedience brings blessings!!
Amen!! =)
LONG WEEK
Wow..time really pass by so fast when the princess has so much activities going on in her life. One activity after another till she didn't even have time for herself. Here's her updates.
12 Oct
The princess went out with some GA youths (Jacky, Rachel, Sarah, Hanna, Lilian & Justin) to Midvalley that day. She watched 'Hairspray' (finally) & got to know some of them a little better. Some irresponsible, some looking 'kong pu' when angry, their likes & dislikes. Interesting & an eye-opener to me bout where my vision is leading me to. Thanks to Jacky for that interesting outing with the youths!
At night, the princess attended youth prayer meeting. She managed to share some new facts bout her Father from the parable of the prodigal son (which is now known as 'the parable of the loving Father' to her). It has a touching story from it. The princess promise to find time to blog bout this story asap.
After youth prayer meeting, the princess went to stay at Elisha's place. Another interesting event of the day. Well, Elisha stays in Block B of Jasmine Tower. She usually parks her car right at the top of the carpark in Block B. Somehow, that night, there wasn't any space. So, she had to drive all the way back down & head to Block A for car space. As we entered Block A carpark, it wasn't raining. She had to drive all the way up to the top again to get a car space. That was the first time she had to park in Block A though. As we left the car to walk over to Block B (where she lives), it rained heavily. At that point, the princess knew that her Father was trying to tell her something. Upon reaching her unit, we got ready for bed. But before sleeping, we shared bout the rain & carpark event & prayed bout it. It was so wonderful that the Father spoke to them both that night.
For the princess, in life, it is troublesome to be up at the top, & it is also troublesome to be down at the bottom. It may be tiring that we have to go round & round many times till we are confused. However, the rain represented 'showers of blessing' from her Father. As thought, after all the rounds that we had to go through, He will surely bless us plentifully.
13 Oct
A day not to be forgotten either. Finally the princess met Kai Yan. Just as he promised, he treated Elisha & the princess crabs together with 2 other peeps (Victoria & Enoch). Crabs for lunch is superb. However, it was so weird. The girls seems to be enjoying themselves so much with crabs. It is not usual though to see girls using their hands while eating crabs, at least not in a messy & rough way. But this 3 gals, they ate more, & 'chu lu' way rather than the 2 guys. Funny scene.
After lunch, all 5 of them went to watch a movie in 1 Utama. 'Secret of Magic Gourd' is a Chinese movie. First time sitting at the first row. A terrible experience for the princess, having to look up at the screne. Then as usual, back to church for youth.
The princess's mum came up that evening though.
14 Oct
Sunday, a day to be celebrate every week. The princess went to church that day, as after church service, she met up with the 1016 dancers to pray and practice a while. The team and the princess actually faced a problem. One of the dancer had gone back to his hometown. And the princess was told that he might not be back in time. However, they prayed in unity, committing this little problem into their Daddy's hand. Amazingly, after praying, the princess got an sms saying that he'll make it in time for the dance. What a joy it was then.
After that, the princess met up with her mum in IKEA. Bought lotsa things there to 'furnish' her place. Walking in her boots the whole day long, it was super tiring. Just as the princess went back home, she felt asleep. A fun day to be with her mum and her 2 sisters though it was pretty depressing to her.
15 Oct
The princess's eldest sister brought them (mum, younger sister, the princess & 2 guys) to a dim sum restaurant for breakfast. The restaurant was packed as the food is delicious at a very reasonable price. Soon after breakfast, headed to 1 Utama & walked again...but this time, the princess is smart enough to wear slippers.
After lunch, her sister sent her back and sent her mum to Pudu since her mum had to go back on that day. Upon reaching home, the princess rested a while and soon got ready for a birthday party.
The princess was actually relunctant to attend in the beginning. However, she managed to know 3 other youths better that night.
16 Oct
First day of class for the princess..who's now in Year 2 Semesters 2. Class was boring. Her English lecturer somehow doesn't make the class interesting at all. And tutorial that day was brief although we started on the syllabus.
Soon after class, the princess & the prince went to 1 Utama. For the princess, it's like her 3rd time already for that past few days. Accompanied the prince to get a new pair of formal shoes. Both of them headed back to the princess's place bout noon, got some rest, and soon got ready for the big event.
When the princess reached the restaurant in Jaya 33, she was anxious. The guy dancer whom we thought couldn't make it was still on the highway back from his hometown bout an hour before the dance. She did paniced a while. Not knowing what else to do, she got her Daddy to take care of it, trusting Him that the guy will make it in time. However, the guy did not. The princess had to take over his place and danced with an unwilling heart.
But, the whole thing taught the princess a lesson. When she obeys her Daddy just simply by dancing and giving her best although with a heavy heart, relying on Him for strength, blessings were given to her. It is such a confirmation that her gift/talent that her Daddy has given to her is meant to be used to bring glory to Him. With the doubts she faced throughout this whole dance thing, learning to rely on Him, the princess is blessed to have the support of the dancers as well.
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Well...guess that's all for updates. Assignments have started coming in. Commitments are starting to be in full swing.
The princess just awaits for a time of rest & refreshing soon though. She's a little tired of this one small event in her life. But trusting her Daddy, it will be kept till His timing.
SHORT STORIES
This particular entry will consist of many short stories of the events that has happened in the princess's life. Some may be inspiring, some may be sad, some may be encouraging, some may be disappointing. It's up to the readers to choose how they want to perceive it as the princess sees it as His destiny for her.
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Spiritual Realm
On the last night of camp, a girl was attacked spiritually. She screamed, she struggled...and it was in the middle of the night bout 3 am. The princess was already asleep. It was only the next morning that she knew what happened.
However, during the sharing & testimony time, the girl came out to share of her experience. And she felt a hand that kept hitting her hard on her back when a guy's hand was just placed stationary at her back. She didn't knew what that feeling was.
As she was sharing, the princess heartbeat rushed. She knew she had to go up & speak to this girl. Being afraid & anxious, she asked her Father to grant her courage to speak out at the front.
Well, thank Him that she was the 2nd last person to speak as the girl was supposed to be the last person to share. So, as the princess walked up to share, she felt her Peace in her heart and shared what she had to share with not only to the girl but to every camper.
After the princess shared, she didn't know whether was the message carried across. But trusting in her Heavenly Father, she left it into His hands.
However, when the campers was walking down from the campsite to the bus, the girl approached the princess asking more of what that has been shared at the front. Knowing that it was an opportunity to share her Father's love to that girl, the princess took the courage to share of her experience as well. Here's what that was shared.
Princess: You don't have to be afraid. You are a child of God, and Satan can never take you away from Him. You are His precious daugther and He will not let you go. In fact, thank Him that you are able to experience it. It allowed other campers to realise how real the spiritual realm is too. It allow them to feel His mighty presence in their midst when they were praying for you. It allow them to witness His wonder working plan. So, be grateful that He can use you in this simple way although it's scary. But do know that in His love, there is no fear.
The girl wanted to know more bout it, but they didn't have much time to talk. The princess gave the girl her email add to further contact & let the girl know more.
However, the princess received an sms from her cgl asking her to read mark 5 for that day's cg. As the princess read it in the bus on the way back, she felt amazed as the beginning of that chapter was about the demon-possessed man. Immediately she smsed that girl bout that chapter, praying that their Teacher will teach the girl as she reads that passage.
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CARE ministry
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Spiritual Realm
On the last night of camp, a girl was attacked spiritually. She screamed, she struggled...and it was in the middle of the night bout 3 am. The princess was already asleep. It was only the next morning that she knew what happened.
However, during the sharing & testimony time, the girl came out to share of her experience. And she felt a hand that kept hitting her hard on her back when a guy's hand was just placed stationary at her back. She didn't knew what that feeling was.
As she was sharing, the princess heartbeat rushed. She knew she had to go up & speak to this girl. Being afraid & anxious, she asked her Father to grant her courage to speak out at the front.
Well, thank Him that she was the 2nd last person to speak as the girl was supposed to be the last person to share. So, as the princess walked up to share, she felt her Peace in her heart and shared what she had to share with not only to the girl but to every camper.
After the princess shared, she didn't know whether was the message carried across. But trusting in her Heavenly Father, she left it into His hands.
However, when the campers was walking down from the campsite to the bus, the girl approached the princess asking more of what that has been shared at the front. Knowing that it was an opportunity to share her Father's love to that girl, the princess took the courage to share of her experience as well. Here's what that was shared.
Princess: You don't have to be afraid. You are a child of God, and Satan can never take you away from Him. You are His precious daugther and He will not let you go. In fact, thank Him that you are able to experience it. It allowed other campers to realise how real the spiritual realm is too. It allow them to feel His mighty presence in their midst when they were praying for you. It allow them to witness His wonder working plan. So, be grateful that He can use you in this simple way although it's scary. But do know that in His love, there is no fear.
The girl wanted to know more bout it, but they didn't have much time to talk. The princess gave the girl her email add to further contact & let the girl know more.
However, the princess received an sms from her cgl asking her to read mark 5 for that day's cg. As the princess read it in the bus on the way back, she felt amazed as the beginning of that chapter was about the demon-possessed man. Immediately she smsed that girl bout that chapter, praying that their Teacher will teach the girl as she reads that passage.
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CARE ministry
What's this CARE ministry you ask? When the princess was on the way back from camp, her cgl informed her that a happy news was awaiting for her when she reached church that night, leaving the princess wondering what is was. But the princess told her Father that whatever it was that is waiting for her, she asked that it will be a reward or some kind to confirm the vision she written down in camp.
When the princess arrived to the church, her cgl gave her a tag that says 'usher'. She thought that being usher was the good news. But it didn't seem to be it. The great happy news only came when her cgl sent her back.
David, the princess's dance teacher, informed her that youth will have a new ministry and the princess is the first one to be
This ministry focuses on new comers that attend youth for the first time. To make them feel welcome & at home. A caring & loving heart is needed for such a ministry.
The princess was & is glad bout this ministry as her Father confirmed this plan for her. Just before she went back, a youth told her, 'Ni hen ai xin', meaning that the princess has a caring heart. And that somehow confirmed the destiny her Father has planned in her life.
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Princess' Vision
Throughout the camp, the princess was taught to look back at her past, look forward to the future, & return back to focus on the present. Since the past cannot be changed & the future cannot be controlled, we can choose how to live now that will leave a legacy behind for others.
Before coming for the camp, the princess already had a rough idea of the vision her Father had for her. And in this camp, it gave her a better understanding of a vision & being able to write it down & reciting it at gunpoint.
However, it still is a draft, but the idea is there. So, the princess hopes that those friends of hers out there reading this...will kindly comment of her vision. Whether does the vision suits her personality, does it mean being her true self?
Of course, at the end of the day, it is the princess' choice to decide. It's just an assignment given by the speaker to get friends opinion. So, here's the princess' vision.
" To live up to my vision faithfully, passionately & excitingly in ministering to hearts through relationship for the enlargment of His kingdom. "
This is still just a draft though. The basic idea is to build His kingdom, ministering to people's heart, through relationships.
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Prince
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Prince
What bout the prince? Where has he gone? Is he still in the picture?
Frankly, the princess wishes & hopes that the prince still is in the picture & has not left. It is indeed a long story. To make it short, the princess & the prince are no longer together. She knows that it is her Father's will for them to be separated..but is for short-term? For long-term? Both of them do not know.
What the princess knows is that...NOW...is His time to equip her, to let her grow, & to prepare herself. She also believes that it is His time to equip the prince, preparing him for something big, & preparing him to be who He wants him to be.
At the moment, the princess is emotionally unstable as the feelings are still there. Strong feelings of wanting to care for the prince, being together with the prince, going through life together with him. Yet, it is her Father's will to separate them for now, teaching her to trust in Him.
There is a lot more the princess wants to share bout this story. However, the time is not now. For her friends out there, she invites you to join her in prayer for strength, for peace, for emotional stability & for her Father's will to be done in her life.
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1016 dance
On Sunday, the dancers practiced & the princess finally got the opportunity to watch them dance altogether as a group. As they danced, the princess felt so touched that she actually shed tears after the dance. That was how she wanted it to be. Though their dance can still improve, but it is the Father's presence that she wants people to feel as they watch them dance. She believes that on that day itself, her Gracefulness & Minister will minister to audience's hearts as they watch it. Knowing that her Father indeed loves each & everyone of them. Even as the princess uses her dance talent, she prays that her Father will use the talent He's given to her as a form of ministering to His creation.
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Well...that's all for the time being. Hope more recent updates will be written down as the princess has decided to be transparent with her life to let others see Christ in her.
" LESS of me & MORE of You!! "
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