Coming back to Malacca for the week has and is a real eye-opener for myself. I always thought I knew myself enough to be strong and to change for the better..but how insufficient I truly know myself.
For the past 2 years, I did not celebrate Christmas nor New Year Eve with my family..thanks to the busy church activities I got myself into. This year..was so different. After moving to PJ for studies, I never did like coming back home. There are just bad memories or unhappy events that were bound to happen. But..NOT this year..like I said..a real eye-opener for myself.
Originally, I was supposed to be in Ipoh for 3-4 days with YK and his family. Yet, with the misunderstanding and my mum first not allowing then allowing me to go caused so much havoc that week till the plan to go Ipoh just had to cancel. Not exactly cancel..just..another story.
So, with much dissapointment not being able to go Ipoh when I was so looking forward to it, I couldn't just stay in MS while Ker Li goes back and also the possibility of the internet connection being cut off. I had to leave for a break..a good relaxing one. And I definitely got it.
Came back, I started reading Twilight..read all 4 books in 5 days. The story taught me much bout controlling my own thoughts and strategies to apply for my always-negative thoughts bout stuff in life. It's very often that I get emotional..especially with YK..and it gets really exhausting most of the times. I'm so grateful for his always-positive views bout things which make situations more easier to handle. But not anymore, I'll so work along side with him to change my always-negative thoughts and attitude to a neutral side first. Just to balance things up in my life instead of always-negative.
Moving on, watching some of the Barbie movies, their phrases..some of them are catchy and a sense of truth in it. For example, "IT IS ONLY HOPELESS WHEN YOU GIVE UP". I've always given up easily to my emotions, letting it take control till it destroys me and the things around me that I love and care. The emotions just flare up and there is no way to cool it down except letting it flare up till the energy is gone. But, by the time the energy are all used up, much have been destroyed and there are some things that cannot even be saved. Each time this happens, I can only blame myself for not controlling the emotions.
Ironically, talking about emotions, something that I can't handle effectively yet, my Final Year Project is related to emotion and mood. Isn't that just...funny? Doing a research that I am so in need of help practically. Yet, doing a research on it opened my eyes and taught me some ways to deal with my emotions too.
All of it are much on the knowledge side though..but, I've been applying some of what I learnt from Twilight...and it really is working for me..that is when I'm not emotional. I guess I'll soon find out if I'm able to use it when I get emotional. >.<
Y3 S2 ends
Yay!! Year 3 Semester 2 has officially ended today with the final examination paper for Management Principles. Another semester to go and into the working world I go. Sounds exciting yet uncertain.
Overall, it has been interesting this semester, as all my semesters were. Starting with a new assignment group, it has been fun working together with them, LiZhen, SK, Angeline and ChinYew. There wasn't any conflicts or so..it was pure fun. However, I have to admit that I made quite a number of mistakes being the leader for the group. Mistakes in assignments which resulted in poor marks for coursework mark. Yet, a bonus for the creativity and the teamwork for the presentation.
Next stop, lecture and tutorial classes. Very different this semester for sure. Somehow, SK always end up sitting beside me..or one of the guys during tutorials. Sort of isolated myself in a good way. Still feeling uncomfortable with a certain someone though. While in lectures, for one, I sit with Angeline and LiZhen, for the other, alone with different people each lecture.
Activities this semester?? Nada..didn't join any activities or events at all. Oh wait..there is..hanging out with United Gang. Just love them. Kinda miss the fun we used to have in previous semesters though since this semester we seldom hang out with the entire group already. But, I'm glad that I gained friends and able to be a friend to some of the girls.
Interesting happenings?
Yea..loving my sweetie more everyday!!
Learning to let ZK go.
Relapse.
Attending counseling sessions.
Hopefully, my final semester will be even more exciting with my final year project and counseling practicum coming up. Looking forward to it. But before that, looking forward to the holidays.
Overall, it has been interesting this semester, as all my semesters were. Starting with a new assignment group, it has been fun working together with them, LiZhen, SK, Angeline and ChinYew. There wasn't any conflicts or so..it was pure fun. However, I have to admit that I made quite a number of mistakes being the leader for the group. Mistakes in assignments which resulted in poor marks for coursework mark. Yet, a bonus for the creativity and the teamwork for the presentation.
Next stop, lecture and tutorial classes. Very different this semester for sure. Somehow, SK always end up sitting beside me..or one of the guys during tutorials. Sort of isolated myself in a good way. Still feeling uncomfortable with a certain someone though. While in lectures, for one, I sit with Angeline and LiZhen, for the other, alone with different people each lecture.
Activities this semester?? Nada..didn't join any activities or events at all. Oh wait..there is..hanging out with United Gang. Just love them. Kinda miss the fun we used to have in previous semesters though since this semester we seldom hang out with the entire group already. But, I'm glad that I gained friends and able to be a friend to some of the girls.
Interesting happenings?
Yea..loving my sweetie more everyday!!
Learning to let ZK go.
Relapse.
Attending counseling sessions.
Hopefully, my final semester will be even more exciting with my final year project and counseling practicum coming up. Looking forward to it. But before that, looking forward to the holidays.
Childhood Friends
Dedicated to Kerrie
Childhood Friends
by Mindy Carpenter
AS childhood friends, we grew up together,
Childhood Friends
by Mindy Carpenter
AS childhood friends, we grew up together,
Swearing to be friends forever and ever.
Sometimes we would argue and fight,
Other times we would laugh and stay up all night.
WE went from playing with games and toys,
To talking and dreaming about different boys.
My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide,
Never having anything to hide.
FRIENDS we do remain,
Things changing, and things staying the same.
To each other we still listen and share,
About each other, we will always care.
*taken from Eric's blog*
*taken from Eric's blog*
Bleeding Inside
Inside of me, the blood has started flowing yesterday towards the outside.
It has been bleeding inside for a very long time now.
It was supposed to be on a recovery pace.
But that was wrong.
Probably there was a clog somewhere that tricked us into believing that recovery was ahead.
Now that the clog has a small hole, it's flowing slowly.
When will it burst?
Then what?
All that can be done is just to cover up that hole.
Or to let it burst?
Which is worst?
It has been bleeding inside for a very long time now.
It was supposed to be on a recovery pace.
But that was wrong.
Probably there was a clog somewhere that tricked us into believing that recovery was ahead.
Now that the clog has a small hole, it's flowing slowly.
When will it burst?
Then what?
All that can be done is just to cover up that hole.
Or to let it burst?
Which is worst?
Acceptance
What is acceptance?
It comes from the root word 'accept' which has 6 different meanings according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary. What's the meaning then?
--> to receive WILLINGLY
--> to give ADMITTANCE to or APPROVAL to
--> to ENDURE without protest or reaction
--> to agree to undertake RESPONSIBILITY
--> to assume an OBLIGATION to pay
--> to receive OFFICIALLY
Putting together the words in bold, ACCEPTANCE is...WILLINGLY, ADMITTANCE/APPROVAL, ENDURANCE, RESPONSIBILITY, OBLIGATION and OFFICIALLY.
It is so difficult these days for people to accept and more personal, for one to accept. Looking from an individual viewpoint, acceptance of self is very much important. Acceptance on how we look, on how we think, how we behave, how we rationalize, how we make decisions, and the list goes on. Without acceptance, it's difficult to love one self.
From the outside perspective, it is the same. We should accept how others look, how they think, how they behave, how they rationalize, etc. Although we may disagree at times on certain aspects, but it is who they are.
We don't only define people by how the look and so on..but more importantly, they are who they are. Their makings are shaped by historical and family background, the past events, the influences. But beneath all that, they are still them.
Why is it so difficult for acceptance to exist in this era? Even in grieving, from a psychology theory, acceptance is the final stage out of 5 stages of grieving. That shows how long the journey to acceptance is..yet, important in coping with grieve effectively.
The same applies in everyone's life. In our dealings with people, before accepting people, we have to accept others. But what if we have accept ourselves, yet others do not accept us? The outcome is depends on the results of that outcome. If one still doesn't mind bout others not accepting us, then that is just wonderful. But if one minds bout others not accepting us, then, obviously that person's self acceptance is not strong enough to overcome other's acceptance towards ourselves.
Complicated. That's what I like to do best. Yet, not many people understands that. In my whole life, acceptance only comes from our family. They accept us no matter what. To extend that out to friends..yea right, they are mostly just fakes. I admit that most of the time, I try to accept my friends for who they truly are, but often, misunderstandings and conflicts happen, which just sucks.
Nothing is real any more at this moment of my life. A person's true makings is always hidden with other intentions. True acceptance will never be found in this world. True acceptance can only be found in Him. An experience I personally went through, yet, still struggling to grasp it in.
What a world..without true acceptance.
It comes from the root word 'accept' which has 6 different meanings according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary. What's the meaning then?
--> to receive WILLINGLY
--> to give ADMITTANCE to or APPROVAL to
--> to ENDURE without protest or reaction
--> to agree to undertake RESPONSIBILITY
--> to assume an OBLIGATION to pay
--> to receive OFFICIALLY
Putting together the words in bold, ACCEPTANCE is...WILLINGLY, ADMITTANCE/APPROVAL, ENDURANCE, RESPONSIBILITY, OBLIGATION and OFFICIALLY.
It is so difficult these days for people to accept and more personal, for one to accept. Looking from an individual viewpoint, acceptance of self is very much important. Acceptance on how we look, on how we think, how we behave, how we rationalize, how we make decisions, and the list goes on. Without acceptance, it's difficult to love one self.
From the outside perspective, it is the same. We should accept how others look, how they think, how they behave, how they rationalize, etc. Although we may disagree at times on certain aspects, but it is who they are.
We don't only define people by how the look and so on..but more importantly, they are who they are. Their makings are shaped by historical and family background, the past events, the influences. But beneath all that, they are still them.
Why is it so difficult for acceptance to exist in this era? Even in grieving, from a psychology theory, acceptance is the final stage out of 5 stages of grieving. That shows how long the journey to acceptance is..yet, important in coping with grieve effectively.
The same applies in everyone's life. In our dealings with people, before accepting people, we have to accept others. But what if we have accept ourselves, yet others do not accept us? The outcome is depends on the results of that outcome. If one still doesn't mind bout others not accepting us, then that is just wonderful. But if one minds bout others not accepting us, then, obviously that person's self acceptance is not strong enough to overcome other's acceptance towards ourselves.
Complicated. That's what I like to do best. Yet, not many people understands that. In my whole life, acceptance only comes from our family. They accept us no matter what. To extend that out to friends..yea right, they are mostly just fakes. I admit that most of the time, I try to accept my friends for who they truly are, but often, misunderstandings and conflicts happen, which just sucks.
Nothing is real any more at this moment of my life. A person's true makings is always hidden with other intentions. True acceptance will never be found in this world. True acceptance can only be found in Him. An experience I personally went through, yet, still struggling to grasp it in.
What a world..without true acceptance.
Dance
I totally miss dancing. It's been a almost half a year now since I last danced and I miss those moments.
My dancing passion started in kindergarten, I guess, when we had to perform at the end of the year. From dancing in kindergarten, to dancing in primary school. For as long as I can recall, I've been dancing every year without fail for some kind of performance or competition.
With this passion, I always wanted to take up ballet lesson..however, due to high fees (if I'm not wrong), my parents didn't allow me. So, had to satisfy myself with going for gymrama as a school activity. Learned some techniques from there.
Moving in to secondary school, we had this inter-class dance competition every year since Form 3 if I recall correctly. But, even from Form 1, I've been dancing for competition or performance purposes every year. Even right up till Form 5, I was still dancing. Sometimes, 2 - 3 dances a year.
After Form 5, I seldom danced any more since it was STPM year. Not much opportunity to dance either. Stepping into uni life, I had opportunities to dance. Although for small scales in CF, it was more than enough..as long as I could dance. And even though I joined the dance society in UTAR, I've never been to any dance meeting before. No idea why.
Dancing has and still is my passion. I remember very clearly that a friend of mine, Joyce, told me once in Form 3 to take up dancing as a career as she saw it in me. I guess she kinda prophesied it..but I did not believe her..giving her excuses that dancers won't make money and my parents would disagree to the idea of dance as a career.
But, last year or this year, I received so many confirmation or assurance of me having this dance talent. Frankly, I still find it hard to believe completely. Is it really my passion? Am I committed to it? Do I really have the talent? I do know for sure is that I may have the talent..but it definitely needs lotsa pruning and stretching to do. >.<
I do miss dancing for sure. But not dancing for the sake of dancing but to dance for enjoyment, relaxing and most of all, as a form of praise or thanksgiving. I enjoy dancing with the flow of the music though..and choreographing too.
Is there a future in my dancing passion? It is my dream to have my own personal dance studio. So, we shall wait and see how.
Here's a dance that me and the dancers choreographed together. And below it, are the dances with the GA team that I totally enjoy dancing with.
- upload next round -
My dancing passion started in kindergarten, I guess, when we had to perform at the end of the year. From dancing in kindergarten, to dancing in primary school. For as long as I can recall, I've been dancing every year without fail for some kind of performance or competition.
With this passion, I always wanted to take up ballet lesson..however, due to high fees (if I'm not wrong), my parents didn't allow me. So, had to satisfy myself with going for gymrama as a school activity. Learned some techniques from there.
Moving in to secondary school, we had this inter-class dance competition every year since Form 3 if I recall correctly. But, even from Form 1, I've been dancing for competition or performance purposes every year. Even right up till Form 5, I was still dancing. Sometimes, 2 - 3 dances a year.
After Form 5, I seldom danced any more since it was STPM year. Not much opportunity to dance either. Stepping into uni life, I had opportunities to dance. Although for small scales in CF, it was more than enough..as long as I could dance. And even though I joined the dance society in UTAR, I've never been to any dance meeting before. No idea why.
Dancing has and still is my passion. I remember very clearly that a friend of mine, Joyce, told me once in Form 3 to take up dancing as a career as she saw it in me. I guess she kinda prophesied it..but I did not believe her..giving her excuses that dancers won't make money and my parents would disagree to the idea of dance as a career.
But, last year or this year, I received so many confirmation or assurance of me having this dance talent. Frankly, I still find it hard to believe completely. Is it really my passion? Am I committed to it? Do I really have the talent? I do know for sure is that I may have the talent..but it definitely needs lotsa pruning and stretching to do. >.<
I do miss dancing for sure. But not dancing for the sake of dancing but to dance for enjoyment, relaxing and most of all, as a form of praise or thanksgiving. I enjoy dancing with the flow of the music though..and choreographing too.
Is there a future in my dancing passion? It is my dream to have my own personal dance studio. So, we shall wait and see how.
Here's a dance that me and the dancers choreographed together. And below it, are the dances with the GA team that I totally enjoy dancing with.
- upload next round -
Prince's Birthday
In a few hours time, it will the prince's birthday.
He'll be 22 years old according to his chronological age..yet, in his heart and mind, he's still so young.
A characteristic of him which can be irritating at times..yet, a joy at times.
Two years have passed since the incident, but, still very clear in my mind.
Every detail of it..I can never let that go.
A memory I want to cherish for the rest of my life, although it hurts sometimes.
Every moment of it all..is like a dream..a dream that came true.
I wish the time would stop back then.
And just to dwell in that atmosphere for as long as I could.
But, that can never happen.
It's all now a memory..a past..a history.
He'll be 22 years old according to his chronological age..yet, in his heart and mind, he's still so young.
A characteristic of him which can be irritating at times..yet, a joy at times.
Two years have passed since the incident, but, still very clear in my mind.
Every detail of it..I can never let that go.
A memory I want to cherish for the rest of my life, although it hurts sometimes.
Every moment of it all..is like a dream..a dream that came true.
I wish the time would stop back then.
And just to dwell in that atmosphere for as long as I could.
But, that can never happen.
It's all now a memory..a past..a history.
Tagged by Joel
1. What is your relationship with him / her?
--> Friends
2. Your 5 impressions towards him / her.
--> Active
--> Talkative
--> Passionate
--> Soft-hearted behind a huge body
--> Friendly
3. The most memorable thing he / she had done for you?
--> Showing concern when I was sick
4. The most memorable thing he / she has said to you?
--> Will get trained for NA
5. If he / she become your lover, you will...
--> hmm...let's not put any ideas >.<
6. If he / she become your enemy, you will...
--> still be his sister in Christ
7. If he / she become your lover, he /she has to improve on...
--> self-esteem
8. If he /she become your enemy, the reason is...
--> talk too much??
9. The most desirable thing to do for him / her is?
--> Cook a meal for him.
10. The over impression of him / her is...
--> HUGE >.<
11. How do you think the people around will feel about you?
--> A crazy psycho
12. The character of you for yourself is...
--> always laughing.
13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is...
--> being emotional.
14. The most ideal person you want to be is...
--> His ideal child.
15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
--> They are just as crazy as me.
--> Friends
2. Your 5 impressions towards him / her.
--> Active
--> Talkative
--> Passionate
--> Soft-hearted behind a huge body
--> Friendly
3. The most memorable thing he / she had done for you?
--> Showing concern when I was sick
4. The most memorable thing he / she has said to you?
--> Will get trained for NA
5. If he / she become your lover, you will...
--> hmm...let's not put any ideas >.<
6. If he / she become your enemy, you will...
--> still be his sister in Christ
7. If he / she become your lover, he /she has to improve on...
--> self-esteem
8. If he /she become your enemy, the reason is...
--> talk too much??
9. The most desirable thing to do for him / her is?
--> Cook a meal for him.
10. The over impression of him / her is...
--> HUGE >.<
11. How do you think the people around will feel about you?
--> A crazy psycho
12. The character of you for yourself is...
--> always laughing.
13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is...
--> being emotional.
14. The most ideal person you want to be is...
--> His ideal child.
15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
--> They are just as crazy as me.
MIA for a month
Wow..I've been MIA (missing in action) for a month already. >.< reason =" addiction">.<>.<>
Plant Tycoon Craze
This is a VERY addictive game. A game I've been playing since I found the game on friendster sometime back in August.
At the beginning, I was just playing it on friednster. But thanks to my dearest sweetie, he just had to download the full version and install it into my laptop. *shakes head*
When he tried playing, he said it was so slow and that he wouldn't play such a game since it needs a lot of patience. But, look what happens now? He took my saved file, and he's playing it back at his hometown.
Anyway, here's some details on the game.
Plant Tycoon® is a gardening sim game where you nurture plants and experiment with increasingly rare and valuable species. The object is to breed and cross breed plants until you find the 6 Magic Plants of Isola and solve the genetic puzzle. You start with a couple of dollars, a handful of seeds, some soil and water. Grow plants, organize and harvest seeds, monitor your plants' health, age and maturity and protect your plants from dehydration and infestations. Sell some of your creations to fund your research, buy better supplies to use in your Nursery and purchase ornaments to customize your virtual garden. (Found 3 so far)
the front page
the planting farm
the seed storage
the supplies store
the collected bugs
the garden
the nursery
At the beginning, I was just playing it on friednster. But thanks to my dearest sweetie, he just had to download the full version and install it into my laptop. *shakes head*
When he tried playing, he said it was so slow and that he wouldn't play such a game since it needs a lot of patience. But, look what happens now? He took my saved file, and he's playing it back at his hometown.
Anyway, here's some details on the game.
Plant Tycoon® is a gardening sim game where you nurture plants and experiment with increasingly rare and valuable species. The object is to breed and cross breed plants until you find the 6 Magic Plants of Isola and solve the genetic puzzle. You start with a couple of dollars, a handful of seeds, some soil and water. Grow plants, organize and harvest seeds, monitor your plants' health, age and maturity and protect your plants from dehydration and infestations. Sell some of your creations to fund your research, buy better supplies to use in your Nursery and purchase ornaments to customize your virtual garden. (Found 3 so far)
the front page
the planting farmthe seed storage
the supplies storethe collected bugs
the gardenthe nursery
Tagged by Jack
1. What are your goals/dreams?
♥ Own & manage my own dance studio
♥ Have a family
♥ Have3 boys 2 boys 1 girl
♥ Open a food business for my parents *if they are interested
2. The most happiest thing in your life?
♥ To love & being loved
♥ The day I was born
3. Favourite colour?
♥ Pink..duh-uh
♥ Black
4. What would you do if you have a million dollars?
♥ Buy a nice & comfortable car for my parents
♥ Get a pink & butterfly furnishedapartment room
♥ Bring my sweetie traveling
5. Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
♥ Sweetie's hometown, Batu Gajah,to see where he grew up
6. What is your weakness that you can't stand the most?
♥ Suppressing my feelings & not expressing it out
7. What will you dowhen if you face something sad?
♥ Find a person I trust/love & cry
♥ Eat chocolate
♥ Cry more
8. Most afraid to lose?
♥ My family
♥ My friends
♥ Sweetie too
9. What is the practical target within this 5 years?
♥ Get a career
♥ Get married & start a family
10. Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
♥ Used tohate not like myself, so, still learning to like myself
11. Favourite song?
♥ Amazing grace
♥ So close
♥ I love you * Barney song
12. What weird things that you wish to happen?
♥ Suddenly becoming a princess
13. What age do you wish to live until?
♥ 83 years old
14. You hate which type of people the most?
♥ People who make promises and then break it
15. Are you satisfied with life?
♥ Nope..not satisfied in certain aspects of life
16. What do you wish to do the most now?
♥ Finding the other 4 magic plants in Plant Tycoon
17. What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
♥ When people loses hope
18. If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
♥ Most of the time = No one
♥ Seldom = Sweetie / Sweetheart
19. A present that you wish to get from your lover?
♥ A ring >.<
20. Who do you miss the most now?
♥ Sweetie
♥ Own & manage my own dance studio
♥ Have a family
♥ Have
♥ Open a food business for my parents *if they are interested
2. The most happiest thing in your life?
♥ To love & being loved
♥ The day I was born
3. Favourite colour?
♥ Pink..duh-uh
♥ Black
4. What would you do if you have a million dollars?
♥ Buy a nice & comfortable car for my parents
♥ Get a pink & butterfly furnished
♥ Bring my sweetie traveling
5. Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
♥ Sweetie's hometown, Batu Gajah,to see where he grew up
6. What is your weakness that you can't stand the most?
♥ Suppressing my feelings & not expressing it out
7. What will you do
♥ Find a person I trust/love & cry
♥ Eat chocolate
♥ Cry more
8. Most afraid to lose?
♥ My family
♥ My friends
♥ Sweetie too
9. What is the practical target within this 5 years?
♥ Get a career
♥ Get married & start a family
10. Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
♥ Used to
11. Favourite song?
♥ Amazing grace
♥ So close
♥ I love you * Barney song
12. What weird things that you wish to happen?
♥ Suddenly becoming a princess
13. What age do you wish to live until?
♥ 83 years old
14. You hate which type of people the most?
♥ People who make promises and then break it
15. Are you satisfied with life?
♥ Nope..not satisfied in certain aspects of life
16. What do you wish to do the most now?
♥ Finding the other 4 magic plants in Plant Tycoon
17. What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
♥ When people loses hope
18. If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
♥ Most of the time = No one
♥ Seldom = Sweetie / Sweetheart
19. A present that you wish to get from your lover?
♥ A ring >.<
20. Who do you miss the most now?
♥ Sweetie
AMAZING GRACE
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.
by John Newton (1725 - 1807)
No Apologies Camp @ Golden Sands, Port Dickson
Date: 17 - 19 August 2008
Venue: Golden Sands, Port Dickson
Event: CBC youth camp
A great and wonderful 3 days journey with the youths of CBC (can't remember what it stands for >.<). For the first time, I conducted one whole session of No Apologies on my own withno one's Daddy's help. It was pretty scary since it's my first time. Although I've been observing some of the few best facilitators doing it, it's totally not the same. It was so silly exciting to have agreed to my colleague, Chloe, that I'll go with her and assist her, not knowing that I'll be handling one whole session on my own. But it was a great experience to me.
Well, the room was wonderful. Slept the bottom level of a double-decker bed with Chloe at the top and 2 other females from Seremban. The food wasawesome so-so only. Don't think it was enough to go round.
Not forgetting..it was my birthday on the 2nd day. They were so nice to have bought such a huge cake to celebrate the other youths (whose birthday was on that same day too) and my birthday. Of course..that day, lunch was somehow not enough to go round. Chloe, 2 of their leaders and me sneaked out and went near by for lunch. Lunch was definitely delicious although banyak lalat flying around.
Overall, the 3 days camp..was definitely AWESOME!!
djun facilitaing her 1st ever No Apologies session 1 (pic taken by joel)
Venue: Golden Sands, Port Dickson
Event: CBC youth camp
A great and wonderful 3 days journey with the youths of CBC (can't remember what it stands for >.<). For the first time, I conducted one whole session of No Apologies on my own with
Well, the room was wonderful. Slept the bottom level of a double-decker bed with Chloe at the top and 2 other females from Seremban. The food was
Not forgetting..it was my birthday on the 2nd day. They were so nice to have bought such a huge cake to celebrate the other youths (whose birthday was on that same day too) and my birthday. Of course..that day, lunch was somehow not enough to go round. Chloe, 2 of their leaders and me sneaked out and went near by for lunch. Lunch was definitely delicious although banyak lalat flying around.
Overall, the 3 days camp..was definitely AWESOME!!
djun facilitaing her 1st ever No Apologies session 1 (pic taken by joel)
l-r: 'nurse', joel, djun, chloe, yode
Big Fat Heavy Gorilla
It's always awful to be sick till you can't get out of bed, needing people to do stuffs for you, and having to take the awfully tasted liquids and big pills called medicine. It's even worse when the sick cycle just goes on and on..one moment you're all better, and the next moment you're not.
Gee..right now, my chest feels like a BIG FAT HEAVY gorilla sitting on it. It makes inhaling so difficult. I guess that's why they call the puffer thing as an inhaler, which is supposedly to make inhaling easier.
Right now, it's a wonder that I can still see through my tiny little eyes that has swollen due to some kind of allergy and typing this entry. Being sick is just so awful. Especially when your immune system is a weak one and your antibody just doesn't seem to function.
Since young, I've always gotten sick. Thanks to the asthma I almost had to stay in a hospital. Thanks to my white blood cells that decided to go missing, I was admitted to the hospital about a month before my SPM! How nice that is.
All I can do now is to sit here and grumble..or..to just take it easy and see it on the bright side. The bright side is, I don't have to go to work..yahoo it's terrible. I can sleep in the whole day and be pampered by er..someone? anyone? NO one.
It definitely ain't nice bout being sick. Food restriction, sleep restriction, activity restriction..
Sigh...just a silly thought if the saying is actually true...
Gee..right now, my chest feels like a BIG FAT HEAVY gorilla sitting on it. It makes inhaling so difficult. I guess that's why they call the puffer thing as an inhaler, which is supposedly to make inhaling easier.
Right now, it's a wonder that I can still see through my tiny little eyes that has swollen due to some kind of allergy and typing this entry. Being sick is just so awful. Especially when your immune system is a weak one and your antibody just doesn't seem to function.
Since young, I've always gotten sick. Thanks to the asthma I almost had to stay in a hospital. Thanks to my white blood cells that decided to go missing, I was admitted to the hospital about a month before my SPM! How nice that is.
All I can do now is to sit here and grumble..or..to just take it easy and see it on the bright side. The bright side is, I don't have to go to work..
It definitely ain't nice bout being sick. Food restriction, sleep restriction, activity restriction..
Sigh...just a silly thought if the saying is actually true...
"An apple a day, Keeps the doctor away"
JULY UPDATE
July = 31days 1 day left
Yea..it's coming to the end of July and August will be there with much exciting and interesting events..but that's the future unknown yet to me.
Well, of course July began with much terrible incidents; the accident, stranded on a highway in the DarkKnight night, news that sweetheart is moving to SS2...and it was followed on with being sick for almost a week, having a sexy voice losing my voice, sweetheart shifting her things, no more washing machine (boohoohoo), my angel getting food poisoning..and 3 family issues.
Yet, there is always the bright side. =) Being trained as a No Apologies facilitator, having my FYP topic approved and going on smoothly, always getting my job done at office and giving me lots of free time to do my FYP and updating blog (like now).
However, HIGHLIGHTS of this month would be:
--> Keeping in touch with a few close friends, like Kerry, El, Jack...
--> Beingfired offered a job after I graduate in Focus...
--> Found a technique to cope with my roller-coaster emotions...
--> My kor's birthday...
So, UPCOMING events for next month are:
--> My birthday... of course... duh-uh...
--> 4 No Apologies workshop...
--> Meeting up with El in Malacca...
--> Karaoke with kor...
Finally, signing off with a short poem taken from some forwarded SMS.
My heart is like an open book,
It depends on how you read me..
Don't judge me by my cover,
Look in and discover..
And you'll be surprised,
With what you find in me..
Yea..it's coming to the end of July and August will be there with much exciting and interesting events..but that's the future unknown yet to me.
Well, of course July began with much terrible incidents; the accident, stranded on a highway in the Dark
Yet, there is always the bright side. =) Being trained as a No Apologies facilitator, having my FYP topic approved and going on smoothly, always getting my job done at office and giving me lots of free time to do my FYP and updating blog (like now).
However, HIGHLIGHTS of this month would be:
--> Keeping in touch with a few close friends, like Kerry, El, Jack...
--> Being
--> Found a technique to cope with my roller-coaster emotions...
--> My kor's birthday...
So, UPCOMING events for next month are:
--> My birthday... of course... duh-uh...
--> 4 No Apologies workshop...
--> Meeting up with El in Malacca...
--> Karaoke with kor...
Finally, signing off with a short poem taken from some forwarded SMS.
My heart is like an open book,
It depends on how you read me..
Don't judge me by my cover,
Look in and discover..
And you'll be surprised,
With what you find in me..
Bad Beginning of July 08
July 08 began with a terrible accident on the 3rd. Though no serious physical injury, just some scratches on my left hand and left knee, the psychological part is affected much. Was suppressing those feelings and thoughts on the day it happened. Thought I could be strong, but how wrong I was. I broke down in the office the next day, taking a half day leave.
And the bad beginning had to be followed on with the bus coming back from malacca stopping at the side of the highway at the 'exit223 persimpangan pedas linggi'. The bus was already so old. As the bus started the journey, the air cond was spoiled. After half an hour, every one in the bus was up and fanning themselves with pieces of paper. And somehow, the engine died.
Everyone got down, taking in some fresh air. Waited for like 2 hours plus for some bus to come pick us up. But somehow, I enjoyed that 2 hours. Had some time with my elder sister. We actually sang songs while waiting. Sunday school songs, Christmas songs..just a crazy fun time. The sky was so clear too. There were many stars. Wished I had taken picture. It was such a beautiful sight. You should have seen it..just wow..marvelous..simply astonishing..
Can July be getting any worst? Minor news and events happened too..
--> News that sweetheart is shifting out in August. It's been quite some time since i last bonded with her..really miss her.
--> My nokia phone is going boncus..cant switch it on..
--> Need guidance for my new FYP topic..not even sure if it can be used for my thesis..
Am looking at all this in a positive perspective..though hard sometimes, but just fix my eyes on Daddy, putting my trust in Him...and I believe He will bring me through it all... =)
And the bad beginning had to be followed on with the bus coming back from malacca stopping at the side of the highway at the 'exit223 persimpangan pedas linggi'. The bus was already so old. As the bus started the journey, the air cond was spoiled. After half an hour, every one in the bus was up and fanning themselves with pieces of paper. And somehow, the engine died.
Everyone got down, taking in some fresh air. Waited for like 2 hours plus for some bus to come pick us up. But somehow, I enjoyed that 2 hours. Had some time with my elder sister. We actually sang songs while waiting. Sunday school songs, Christmas songs..just a crazy fun time. The sky was so clear too. There were many stars. Wished I had taken picture. It was such a beautiful sight. You should have seen it..just wow..marvelous..simply astonishing..
Can July be getting any worst? Minor news and events happened too..
--> News that sweetheart is shifting out in August. It's been quite some time since i last bonded with her..really miss her.
--> My nokia phone is going boncus..cant switch it on..
--> Need guidance for my new FYP topic..not even sure if it can be used for my thesis..
Am looking at all this in a positive perspective..though hard sometimes, but just fix my eyes on Daddy, putting my trust in Him...and I believe He will bring me through it all... =)
Industrial Training
Industrial training has passed for ONE month. And it definitely has been a very INTERESTING experience.
How bout the people I work with? Stay tuned and I'll be back for more later.. >.<
First, my primary job, keying in the survey forms, I got to get into the world of teenagers about sex. Their different perceptions of when is the right time for sex. Most of course said after marriage..but I do wonder, do they really choose after marriage because they believe so and will do it? Or do they choose it because it's just the 'right' thing to do?
From survey forms to registration and evaluation forms, the registration form can be pretty interesting data as well. Getting to know new names...and I can get quite curious especially on how they choose email address. Evaluation forms shows how effective the workshop has been for the students. They get to comment on what they learn and what improvements should be made. The lessons learned are pretty encouraging although the comments on the workshop can get pretty lame.
My secondary task would be scanning articles for the research department. Lots and lots of newspaper cuttings to be scanned and to keyed in to the archive system. As I scanned them in and updating the archive, I get to read some of the articles..and I realize..there are a lot of information there that I could have gotten for my past assignments. Those are of great sources to make the assignments more firm. Know where to get sources next time round when doing assignment..
Well..those 2 activities are on daily basis..just added in a new activity this month though..which is reading relevant books and summarizing it. Just finished an INSPIRING book today on parenting.
Oh yeah..not forgetting, able to discuss with the counselor, Liz Samuels, who used to be a family doctor, then took counseling. She's a very wise person. Passionate too. Though I have not click with her, from the way she talks, she's someone I'd respect. Anyway, learned a new counseling skill from her and able to gain a little knowledge on counseling, though not my interest.
From survey forms to registration and evaluation forms, the registration form can be pretty interesting data as well. Getting to know new names...and I can get quite curious especially on how they choose email address. Evaluation forms shows how effective the workshop has been for the students. They get to comment on what they learn and what improvements should be made. The lessons learned are pretty encouraging although the comments on the workshop can get pretty lame.
My secondary task would be scanning articles for the research department. Lots and lots of newspaper cuttings to be scanned and to keyed in to the archive system. As I scanned them in and updating the archive, I get to read some of the articles..and I realize..there are a lot of information there that I could have gotten for my past assignments. Those are of great sources to make the assignments more firm. Know where to get sources next time round when doing assignment..
Well..those 2 activities are on daily basis..just added in a new activity this month though..which is reading relevant books and summarizing it. Just finished an INSPIRING book today on parenting.
Oh yeah..not forgetting, able to discuss with the counselor, Liz Samuels, who used to be a family doctor, then took counseling. She's a very wise person. Passionate too. Though I have not click with her, from the way she talks, she's someone I'd respect. Anyway, learned a new counseling skill from her and able to gain a little knowledge on counseling, though not my interest.
How bout the people I work with? Stay tuned and I'll be back for more later.. >.<
What's New
--> IA training is going on smoothly. Always facing the computer. Attended 2 No Apologies workshop so far. Trying to finish up 2 major task given before IA ends. Research topic found which will probably be my FYP title too.
--> Back to talking with my best friend. Glad that she has changed over that few months. And she made me proud by realizing something important on her own. Kerry, no matter what, you'll always be my best friend. Nothing can ever take this friendship away..not even that short period of time out.
--> Church in PJ?? Stopped attending it. Too many politics inside. Yea..I love the people there..but that can never keep me there. His love is not just inside that building..but definitely way beyond that.
--> Malacca!! HOME SWEET HOME!! Been going back a lot recently. I miss home..miss my family..miss my bed. >.<> Old love? New love? Why confine love within a BGR? It's way more than that. Love for the prince is definitely real..but will not just view it as a BGR. Love for that someone new possible? Could be. Love definitely can be developed. It takes time just like the garden of love which flowers in it needs nourishment and taken care of.
Guess that's bout it..unless something else comes up..
For now..I am certainly growing emotionally, spiritually and knowledge wise..
A note for my kor-kor:
Thank you for the reminder and concern! You are always looking out for me and somehow..you are always appearing when things just happen. You are an angel to me. I'm so happy to have met you and having you as my big brother. May His blessed grace shower upon you and give you someone to love ASAP!! Love ya, kor! =)
--> Back to talking with my best friend. Glad that she has changed over that few months. And she made me proud by realizing something important on her own. Kerry, no matter what, you'll always be my best friend. Nothing can ever take this friendship away..not even that short period of time out.
--> Church in PJ?? Stopped attending it. Too many politics inside. Yea..I love the people there..but that can never keep me there. His love is not just inside that building..but definitely way beyond that.
--> Malacca!! HOME SWEET HOME!! Been going back a lot recently. I miss home..miss my family..miss my bed. >.<> Old love? New love? Why confine love within a BGR? It's way more than that. Love for the prince is definitely real..but will not just view it as a BGR. Love for that someone new possible? Could be. Love definitely can be developed. It takes time just like the garden of love which flowers in it needs nourishment and taken care of.
Guess that's bout it..unless something else comes up..
For now..I am certainly growing emotionally, spiritually and knowledge wise..
A note for my kor-kor:
Thank you for the reminder and concern! You are always looking out for me and somehow..you are always appearing when things just happen. You are an angel to me. I'm so happy to have met you and having you as my big brother. May His blessed grace shower upon you and give you someone to love ASAP!! Love ya, kor! =)
Friends
FRIENDS??
Many types of friends in this world.
Some nice, some not..
Some good, some bad..
Some caring, some cruel..
But who am i to judge?
Friends are sometimes there,
Sometimes they are not..
Friends are sometimes comforting,
Sometimes they are annoying..
Friends are sometimes a blessing,
Sometimes they are trouble..
But who am i to judge?
I might be like any of the types of friends there are out there..
To some,
I may be caring and loving,
But to some,
I may be ignorant and cruel..
To some,
I may be nice and innocent,
But to some,
I may not be nice and innocent..
To some,
I may be there all the time,
But to some,
I may not be there..
Friendship is defined differently in many perspectives..
So, who am i to judge if you're my friend or not??
Many types of friends in this world.
Some nice, some not..
Some good, some bad..
Some caring, some cruel..
But who am i to judge?
Friends are sometimes there,
Sometimes they are not..
Friends are sometimes comforting,
Sometimes they are annoying..
Friends are sometimes a blessing,
Sometimes they are trouble..
But who am i to judge?
I might be like any of the types of friends there are out there..
To some,
I may be caring and loving,
But to some,
I may be ignorant and cruel..
To some,
I may be nice and innocent,
But to some,
I may not be nice and innocent..
To some,
I may be there all the time,
But to some,
I may not be there..
Friendship is defined differently in many perspectives..
So, who am i to judge if you're my friend or not??
My Thoughts
A sesat coupon to be redeemed anytime and anywhere for my blessing.
What can that mean?
I'm lost?
Your life, your story;
your history, your memories.
Let today's story be tomorrow's memories..
Definitely it's my life and it's my story...
I make my own history, I make my own memories...
Life goes on..
But when the roots has grown deep inside, it hurts to pluck it out..
Yet, i'm still trusting the Great Gardener to clear what's not to be in the garden..
If that root is meant to be there, it will be there...
What can that mean?
I'm lost?
Your life, your story;
your history, your memories.
Let today's story be tomorrow's memories..
Definitely it's my life and it's my story...
I make my own history, I make my own memories...
Life goes on..
But when the roots has grown deep inside, it hurts to pluck it out..
Yet, i'm still trusting the Great Gardener to clear what's not to be in the garden..
If that root is meant to be there, it will be there...
Confused -.-??
"frens 4eva" u promised.
"2gether till e end".
we did everythin wit each other.
u were my best fren.
when i was sad u were by my side.
when i was scaredu felt my fear.
u were my best support.
if i needed u u were there.
u were e greatest fren, u alwiz knew wat 2 say.
u made everythin seem better.
as long as we had each other, everythin would b ok.
but somewhere along e line, we slowly came apart.
i was here, u were there.
it tore a hole in my heart.
things were changing, our cheerful music reversed its tune.
it was like havin salt witout pepper, a sun witout its moon.
suddenly we were miles apart, 2 different ppl wit nothin e same.
it was as if we hadn't been frens.
although we knew deep in our hearts neither 1 of us was 2 b blame.
u had made many new frens n luckily so had i.
but tat didn't change e hurt.
e loss of our frenship made me cry.
as we grow older things must change.
but they don always have 2 end.
even though it's different now, u'll alwiz b my fren.
"2gether till e end".
we did everythin wit each other.
u were my best fren.
when i was sad u were by my side.
when i was scaredu felt my fear.
u were my best support.
if i needed u u were there.
u were e greatest fren, u alwiz knew wat 2 say.
u made everythin seem better.
as long as we had each other, everythin would b ok.
but somewhere along e line, we slowly came apart.
i was here, u were there.
it tore a hole in my heart.
things were changing, our cheerful music reversed its tune.
it was like havin salt witout pepper, a sun witout its moon.
suddenly we were miles apart, 2 different ppl wit nothin e same.
it was as if we hadn't been frens.
although we knew deep in our hearts neither 1 of us was 2 b blame.
u had made many new frens n luckily so had i.
but tat didn't change e hurt.
e loss of our frenship made me cry.
as we grow older things must change.
but they don always have 2 end.
even though it's different now, u'll alwiz b my fren.
End of Year 2
My 2nd year as a Psychology student in UTAR has ended. Had its ups and downs for sure. Been a tough year, yet unforgettable.
The last semester in Year 2 especially..there were 3 flowers which withered. One by one leaving away. One of them was by my choice, the other 2 by their own. With them being where ever they are now, I can only keep them in my heart and memory.
Well, now on semester break before starting my Industrial Attachment with Focus on the Family in Puchong. A little nervous, yet a little excited. No sure what to expect. But it's better not to expect much.
Anyway, not much update. Just lazing around in my palace at the moment. Trying to relax and enjoy life while i can. >.<
The last semester in Year 2 especially..there were 3 flowers which withered. One by one leaving away. One of them was by my choice, the other 2 by their own. With them being where ever they are now, I can only keep them in my heart and memory.
Well, now on semester break before starting my Industrial Attachment with Focus on the Family in Puchong. A little nervous, yet a little excited. No sure what to expect. But it's better not to expect much.
Anyway, not much update. Just lazing around in my palace at the moment. Trying to relax and enjoy life while i can. >.<
QUIT?? don't QUIT??
this thought did not appear out of a sudden..and it definitely did not just exist today. it has passed through my mind a number of times before but i always decide not to quit.
BUT, this time...i really question myself...i've let go much of my life for it...although i am very happy and enjoying it a lot. my family, my time, my assignments...but is this the time??
just today, i neglected my own sister for it. how could that happen? i seldom go back to my parents because of it. i put it at such a top priority till i neglected other aspects in my life.
is it really my calling then? of course it is my passion...but probably it's not the time yet for me to focus on it...really disappointed with myself...
BUT, this time...i really question myself...i've let go much of my life for it...although i am very happy and enjoying it a lot. my family, my time, my assignments...but is this the time??
just today, i neglected my own sister for it. how could that happen? i seldom go back to my parents because of it. i put it at such a top priority till i neglected other aspects in my life.
is it really my calling then? of course it is my passion...but probably it's not the time yet for me to focus on it...really disappointed with myself...
WHO'S SEED OF LOVE WILL GROW?
A girl's heart,
Is like a garden.
Flowers grow,
Everywhere in the garden.
However,
A special space is kept,
For this certain special seed,
To grow its roots,
And have it's flower bloom.
Somehow,
All types of seeds,
Came and tried,
Yet failed,
To have its roots deepen.
Till a year ago,
This special seed came,
Grew its roots,
In this special space.
Throughout the year,
The roots deepen,
Watered with love,
Covered with care,
Nurtured with great gentle touch.
But,
It stopped growing.
As other seeds,
Fight their way,
They wonder,
Will they grow?
So,
Who's seed will grow?
Will the seed that has grown,
Stay strong and not give up?
I just wonder,
Who's seed of love will grow,
In the garden of my heart?
by djun
Is like a garden.
Flowers grow,
Everywhere in the garden.
However,
A special space is kept,
For this certain special seed,
To grow its roots,
And have it's flower bloom.
Somehow,
All types of seeds,
Came and tried,
Yet failed,
To have its roots deepen.
Till a year ago,
This special seed came,
Grew its roots,
In this special space.
Throughout the year,
The roots deepen,
Watered with love,
Covered with care,
Nurtured with great gentle touch.
But,
It stopped growing.
As other seeds,
Fight their way,
They wonder,
Will they grow?
So,
Who's seed will grow?
Will the seed that has grown,
Stay strong and not give up?
I just wonder,
Who's seed of love will grow,
In the garden of my heart?
by djun
1st STEAMED FISH
27 February 2008, the day i steamed fish for the first time.
The gravy is just simply delicious, just that the fish was a little hard to me.
Totally love cooking.
Totally enjoy playing around with the food and taste.
So cant wait for family life, when i can cook everyday, having my loved ones finishing the food.
Time consuming and money spent..but then...the joy of it can NEVER be replaced!!
The gravy is just simply delicious, just that the fish was a little hard to me.
Totally love cooking.
Totally enjoy playing around with the food and taste.
So cant wait for family life, when i can cook everyday, having my loved ones finishing the food.
Time consuming and money spent..but then...the joy of it can NEVER be replaced!!
What does my name means?
Hui Jun
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you...especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are a verylucky blessed person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're solucky blessed, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread yourluck blessing around a little to people who need it.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Lim Hui Jun
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredible happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you...especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are a verylucky blessed person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're solucky blessed, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread yourluck blessing around a little to people who need it.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Djun
You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a verylucky blessed person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're solucky blessed, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread yourluck blessing around a little to people who need it.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Junie
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a verylucky blessed person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're solucky blessed, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread yourluck blessing around a little to people who need it.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible.
But for the important things, you pull it together.
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So, what does your name means?
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you...especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are a very
And because you're so
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread your
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Lim Hui Jun
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredible happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you...especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are a very
And because you're so
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread your
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Djun
You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a very
And because you're so
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread your
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
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Junie
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed...even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a very
And because you're so
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy.
Spread your
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes get overboard in interpreting signals.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem in making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible.
But for the important things, you pull it together.
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So, what does your name means?
Y2 S3 Breakdown
Gee..I finally broke down as year 2 semester 3 student yesterday. That adds up to 4 breakdowns per semester within 5 semesters. Seems like a cycle that every semester I would breakdown.
However, I choose to stop it since last semester. I choose to go through assignments with a more positive attitude and positive thinking.
For this semester, I did try my best to change the way I handle assignments. I tried to communicate with the group, getting things done earlier. Yet, it has failed me. It made me mentally tired, hence, leading on to emotionally breakdown.
Imagine breaking down by the roadside where cars pass by, people walking by the sidewalk. It was to that extend this time. But I'm still grateful that no panic attacks occur. Though falling sick with fever or asthma is like a symptom for assignment stress, it's way better that it has medication to cure.
Not only that, had a sudden breakdown too in front of my sweetheart and my roommate till I couldn't even tell them what happened. Just cried it all out, having them to comfort and soothe me without knowing what happened. To me, they didn't have to talk at all. Simply by being there for me, giving me a hug and a pat on my head or shoulder, is all that's needed.
It is a process that I have to go through, the ups and downs of assignment. And I thank Him that I still have Him to rely on no matter what. And that my identity is in Him and not on the people around me.
Hoping that the following 2 more semester of my degree study will be a better one with hope for more positive changes. =)
However, I choose to stop it since last semester. I choose to go through assignments with a more positive attitude and positive thinking.
For this semester, I did try my best to change the way I handle assignments. I tried to communicate with the group, getting things done earlier. Yet, it has failed me. It made me mentally tired, hence, leading on to emotionally breakdown.
Imagine breaking down by the roadside where cars pass by, people walking by the sidewalk. It was to that extend this time. But I'm still grateful that no panic attacks occur. Though falling sick with fever or asthma is like a symptom for assignment stress, it's way better that it has medication to cure.
Not only that, had a sudden breakdown too in front of my sweetheart and my roommate till I couldn't even tell them what happened. Just cried it all out, having them to comfort and soothe me without knowing what happened. To me, they didn't have to talk at all. Simply by being there for me, giving me a hug and a pat on my head or shoulder, is all that's needed.
It is a process that I have to go through, the ups and downs of assignment. And I thank Him that I still have Him to rely on no matter what. And that my identity is in Him and not on the people around me.
Hoping that the following 2 more semester of my degree study will be a better one with hope for more positive changes. =)
Tutorial 2 Outing
This day was extremely interesting for most students in my tutorial group. Majority of us about 87% of us was infected by this newly found syndrome called 'Chinese New Year Syndrome'. It was for the first time that all of us were so united like a big happy family.
Now, I shall let the pictures tell the stories..
Now, I shall let the pictures tell the stories..
half of the crowd @ Old Town Kopitiam for lunch
Zi Yin @ the highlights were on her
who's mouth are all these??
After lunch, the gang rushed for a tutorial class which we arrived late. Had one of the most exciting debate ever in our tutorial as there were lots of bullets and fire shooting, not only from those who were debating, but also from the members of the floor. A warfare I would say.
After class, we all gathered excluding one tutorial mate. Discussion on where to eat, time, etc. So, after many phone calls, it was decided to have steamboat & BBQ for dinner. Restoran Telipon @ Kelana Jaya @ 8pm. Picture story continues on.
After class, we all gathered excluding one tutorial mate. Discussion on where to eat, time, etc. So, after many phone calls, it was decided to have steamboat & BBQ for dinner. Restoran Telipon @ Kelana Jaya @ 8pm. Picture story continues on.
Vincent @ tour leader in charge of arrangements
the tour members @ Tutorial 2
Then, we all attended one last lecture, which was supposed to finish at 7pm, but it ended way earlier. So, dinner time changed to 7pm. However, 2 cars arrived late bout 8pm due to the traffic jam along the way. When dinner started, that's when the syndrome got worst, from bad to worst. People going crazy, going high.
In fact, there was this family with 2 girls sitting near our table. They were watching us all the time, laughing at us, staring at us. Even the girl's mother laughed at us. At one point, the girls actually got freaked out by our behavior. The guys were actually acting like small kids. We were all so loud, laughing, playing around. Pictures as proof here.
(this pictures taken from Freezingcod)
males that attended
females that attended
a male monkey of tutorial 2
In fact, there was this family with 2 girls sitting near our table. They were watching us all the time, laughing at us, staring at us. Even the girl's mother laughed at us. At one point, the girls actually got freaked out by our behavior. The guys were actually acting like small kids. We were all so loud, laughing, playing around. Pictures as proof here.
(this pictures taken from Freezingcod)
males that attended
females that attended
a male monkey of tutorial 2
group photo edited by Freezingcod
Happy News
:) So happy today. Got a happy and good news today from a friend who was selected as "Employee of the month" in his workplace. He didn't expect to get selected though as there were 2 other seniors from different departments who were selected more than a couple of times before. It is indeed a nice surprise. Kinda made my day, not forgetting 'craving' as he puts it..a SMILE on my face.
Well..i would describe friend of mine as a career striver as he is striving to be promoted further. His aim is to be a director of rooms at the hotel he's working at. Currently, he's working at the front office. Hoping to be promoted as a supervisor soon as that position soon needs to be filled up.
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Next happy news would be..the direction of my FYP (Final Year Project). Decided to focus on emotions though..especially with children. Been reading journals and doing research on this topic for more information. I could even stay up till 5am last Saturday reading journals, getting all excited bout it as I form the research in my mind. Really want to give my all in doing a research for kids these days to improve their personal affective part of life.
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Hmm...Chinese New Year will be coming very soon. As usual, CNY shopping is a yearly affair since young. This year, surprisingly, majority of the new clothes that I bought are way cheaper than all the other years. Each piece of clothing cost > RM 19.90 each. Cool, right? And to add the specialty in this year's clothings is..I bought it all on my own..without much of my sister's or mum's opinion. Will capture pictures of me in those clothes during CNY and upload it here then.
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One more happy news is that I'm forever grateful to Daddy for His blessings on me in my studies. For all my education years, I can see Him working miraculously each important years in my life. From wanting to give up to giving it another chance. From having no time to study due to illness to a result that allowed me to further study. From a stressful and terrible semester to future exciting and wonderful semesters. It's all by His grace and love that the bads change for the better. All glory goes to Daddy!! :)
Well..i would describe friend of mine as a career striver as he is striving to be promoted further. His aim is to be a director of rooms at the hotel he's working at. Currently, he's working at the front office. Hoping to be promoted as a supervisor soon as that position soon needs to be filled up.
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Next happy news would be..the direction of my FYP (Final Year Project). Decided to focus on emotions though..especially with children. Been reading journals and doing research on this topic for more information. I could even stay up till 5am last Saturday reading journals, getting all excited bout it as I form the research in my mind. Really want to give my all in doing a research for kids these days to improve their personal affective part of life.
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Hmm...Chinese New Year will be coming very soon. As usual, CNY shopping is a yearly affair since young. This year, surprisingly, majority of the new clothes that I bought are way cheaper than all the other years. Each piece of clothing cost > RM 19.90 each. Cool, right? And to add the specialty in this year's clothings is..I bought it all on my own..without much of my sister's or mum's opinion. Will capture pictures of me in those clothes during CNY and upload it here then.
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One more happy news is that I'm forever grateful to Daddy for His blessings on me in my studies. For all my education years, I can see Him working miraculously each important years in my life. From wanting to give up to giving it another chance. From having no time to study due to illness to a result that allowed me to further study. From a stressful and terrible semester to future exciting and wonderful semesters. It's all by His grace and love that the bads change for the better. All glory goes to Daddy!! :)
F.A.S.T = Fast and Simple Thoughts
My final semester as a Year 2 student has begun. 6 subjects to cope, including the interesting assignments given.
Results came out yesterday. CGPA increased a little. Am satisfied with last semester's results. Just that this semester, I've got to work even harder to achieve my initial aim of getting 3.5. Seems impossible but it will be possible through Him who strengthens me.
Group assignment is still the same. Sticking with the same group (Vincent, Vivian, Nathan, Clement). Definitely more stress free being with them.
Church activities are filling up my weekend schedule till I can't make it back to hometown. Fri night; Youth prayer meeting, Sat; somehow full day in church, Sun evening; dance class.
At times, I do want to quit church..no denying it. Just quit all activities. The only reason that's keeping me there is my life's goal. Yet, it gets tiring most of the time, especially when it deals with humans.
One silly issue that will support me quiting church is so high the possibility. Another reason that may keep me in church is also something else that it's confidential. Been keeping it inside for 2 days now since I heard the news. No one to share it to, no one to share my tears with to release.
What's it going to be like when that someone you respect leaves? Someone who has been encouraging you time and time again, giving you opportunity to show your talent, someone who trust you so much. Yeah..it is indeed a short-term thing but for a long-term effect. That is the thought that stops me from crying.
Certain things are just in a mess right now. Confused thoughts that I hope to straighten out before it gets more complicated. Unwanted feelings I hope to release before it brings more trouble. Simply trying to focus on the now and ignore the thoughts and feelings.
Results came out yesterday. CGPA increased a little. Am satisfied with last semester's results. Just that this semester, I've got to work even harder to achieve my initial aim of getting 3.5. Seems impossible but it will be possible through Him who strengthens me.
Group assignment is still the same. Sticking with the same group (Vincent, Vivian, Nathan, Clement). Definitely more stress free being with them.
Church activities are filling up my weekend schedule till I can't make it back to hometown. Fri night; Youth prayer meeting, Sat; somehow full day in church, Sun evening; dance class.
At times, I do want to quit church..no denying it. Just quit all activities. The only reason that's keeping me there is my life's goal. Yet, it gets tiring most of the time, especially when it deals with humans.
One silly issue that will support me quiting church is so high the possibility. Another reason that may keep me in church is also something else that it's confidential. Been keeping it inside for 2 days now since I heard the news. No one to share it to, no one to share my tears with to release.
What's it going to be like when that someone you respect leaves? Someone who has been encouraging you time and time again, giving you opportunity to show your talent, someone who trust you so much. Yeah..it is indeed a short-term thing but for a long-term effect. That is the thought that stops me from crying.
Certain things are just in a mess right now. Confused thoughts that I hope to straighten out before it gets more complicated. Unwanted feelings I hope to release before it brings more trouble. Simply trying to focus on the now and ignore the thoughts and feelings.
~ my sweetheart ~
My sweetheart @ Mary @ my house mate.. is the sweetest grown up lady I've ever met since I came to study here in KL. She's like a mummy, yet a sister, yet a teacher, yet a friend to me. Always there for me when I need her, always giving the best advice, always taking care of me.
It'll be one year when February comes. In this one year, we've gone through a lot together. Her life and my life, sharing our problems to each other, sharing our life story. Trust and love exists in this friendship with her.
Our stories are just too many. So, here are some pictures taken recently as pictures paint a thousand words.
sweetheart brushing teeth
sweetheart blueking at who wor?
sweetheart & me on 30th Dec 07 @ outside Millennium Square
Hence, here's a special tribute to my dearest sweetheart whom I love dearly and wishes her happy and blessed every day of her life!!
It'll be one year when February comes. In this one year, we've gone through a lot together. Her life and my life, sharing our problems to each other, sharing our life story. Trust and love exists in this friendship with her.
Our stories are just too many. So, here are some pictures taken recently as pictures paint a thousand words.
sweetheart brushing teeth
sweetheart blueking at who wor? my cute innocent sweetheart & me 
sweetheart & me on 30th Dec 07 @ outside Millennium SquareHence, here's a special tribute to my dearest sweetheart whom I love dearly and wishes her happy and blessed every day of her life!!
YEAR 2008
It's the 4th day of the year 2008. A day I can finally stay home and relax since the beginning of year 2008.
What I've been up to since new year eve? As the saying goes.."a picture paints a thousand words"..so, here are some pictures since the last day of year 2007 till today.
31st Dec 07
Basically, still waiting for photos from Nath and my dear kor-kor coz the photos that I took are..not so nice..
the crowd in between 'the curve' and 'ikea'
1st Jan 08
Karaoke with Psychomates, then shopping and dinner at Indian restaurant.
What I've been up to since new year eve? As the saying goes.."a picture paints a thousand words"..so, here are some pictures since the last day of year 2007 till today.
31st Dec 07
Basically, still waiting for photos from Nath and my dear kor-kor coz the photos that I took are..not so nice..
the crowd in between 'the curve' and 'ikea'1st Jan 08
Karaoke with Psychomates, then shopping and dinner at Indian restaurant.
who's the best poser of all among the 3 Psychomates??
singing or posing?
me eating Indian food..proof for my dad that I eat
2nd Jan 08
Movie with Zikang, Esther, Daniel & Rebekah..Alvin & The Chipmunks.
group photo at 'millennium square'
singing or posing?
a shop with nice clothes that i wanted to buy..but ended up didn't buy
shopping hard!! 
me eating Indian food..proof for my dad that I eat2nd Jan 08
Movie with Zikang, Esther, Daniel & Rebekah..Alvin & The Chipmunks.
group photo at 'millennium square'group photo at 'old town kopitiam' 
3rd Jan 08
Watched 2 movies in one day with a friend..National Treasure 2 & I Am Legend. Then, Cell Group in church.
movie ticket for National Treasure 2
4th Jan 08
Stayed home most of the time..just went out to church for Youth prayer meeting. Spent time with Daddy again and also cleared up my notes.
5th Jan 08
Right now, 119 am, on the phone with my dearest kor-kor..hehe...and just a personal note for him..
" Kor, you are not alone ya..love you ya."
3rd Jan 08
Watched 2 movies in one day with a friend..National Treasure 2 & I Am Legend. Then, Cell Group in church.
movie ticket for National Treasure 24th Jan 08
Stayed home most of the time..just went out to church for Youth prayer meeting. Spent time with Daddy again and also cleared up my notes.
5th Jan 08
Right now, 119 am, on the phone with my dearest kor-kor..hehe...and just a personal note for him..
" Kor, you are not alone ya..love you ya."
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