QUIT?? don't QUIT??

this thought did not appear out of a sudden..and it definitely did not just exist today. it has passed through my mind a number of times before but i always decide not to quit.

BUT, this time...i really question myself...i've let go much of my life for it...although i am very happy and enjoying it a lot. my family, my time, my assignments...but is this the time??

just today, i neglected my own sister for it. how could that happen? i seldom go back to my parents because of it. i put it at such a top priority till i neglected other aspects in my life.

is it really my calling then? of course it is my passion...but probably it's not the time yet for me to focus on it...really disappointed with myself...

WHO'S SEED OF LOVE WILL GROW?

A girl's heart,
Is like a garden.
Flowers grow,
Everywhere in the garden.

However,
A special space is kept,
For this certain special seed,
To grow its roots,
And have it's flower bloom.

Somehow,
All types of seeds,
Came and tried,
Yet failed,
To have its roots deepen.

Till a year ago,
This special seed came,
Grew its roots,
In this special space.

Throughout the year,
The roots deepen,
Watered with love,
Covered with care,
Nurtured with great gentle touch.

But,
It stopped growing.

As other seeds,
Fight their way,
They wonder,
Will they grow?

So,
Who's seed will grow?
Will the seed that has grown,
Stay strong and not give up?

I just wonder,
Who's seed of love will grow,
In the garden of my heart?

by djun