At this moment, I'm totally and extremely in GERAMNESS!!!!!
Can't accept that fact!! An idea based from my observation taken just like that. Ya...it may be good that someone else is doing the hard work getting the new concept out. Yet, I don't feel peaceful about it at all. Disappointed with myself. I should be happy yet..I just can't let it go.
GERAMNESS!!!
GERAMNESS!!!
GERAMNESS!!!
GERAMNESS!!!
GERAMNESS!!!
Upset + Stressed = Happiness
Upset + Stressed = Happiness??
(-ve) + (-ve) = (+ve)??
How can that be?
Well, I'm pretty UPSET with the academic world. Although I'm pursuing my education in the academic world, I find that the academic world is full of fakes. The system in it is also filled with lies and cheats. Higher level taking advantages of younger level. The non-sharing environment. It sucks to be in the academic world.
STRESSED with work load and self-expectations. Work load never stops. It always comes and it never stops. High self-expectations. Gets STRESSED to meet those high self-expectations.
HAPPINESS comes from where out of all these negatives? Learning, gaining more knowledge and experiences...... can't think of anything else related to work. BUT, what cause the = HAPPINESS is...shh...my dearest sweetie.
Each day I come back tired from work, he's always there to meet me with a smiley and cheerful face. Though Isometimes most of the time scold/nag/angry at him, he never gives up on me. In fact, he keep supporting me and encouraging me in his own ways that he never realises.
The old me will never think of such thing. I would probably just dwell in my sufferings and torture. But that's the past. Now is now. Things have changed. =D
(-ve) + (-ve) = (+ve)??
How can that be?
Well, I'm pretty UPSET with the academic world. Although I'm pursuing my education in the academic world, I find that the academic world is full of fakes. The system in it is also filled with lies and cheats. Higher level taking advantages of younger level. The non-sharing environment. It sucks to be in the academic world.
STRESSED with work load and self-expectations. Work load never stops. It always comes and it never stops. High self-expectations. Gets STRESSED to meet those high self-expectations.
HAPPINESS comes from where out of all these negatives? Learning, gaining more knowledge and experiences...... can't think of anything else related to work. BUT, what cause the = HAPPINESS is...shh...my dearest sweetie.
Each day I come back tired from work, he's always there to meet me with a smiley and cheerful face. Though I
The old me will never think of such thing. I would probably just dwell in my sufferings and torture. But that's the past. Now is now. Things have changed. =D
Verge of Giving Up
THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD ARE SO UNFAIR!!!
I just can't stand people who think that just because they have the title and reputation, they can have the right to use and manipulate people just as they like.
WE are human beings too!! We have our limits as well!!! We have our rights!! We have feelings!!
So fake! Totally fake!!
Totally discouraged!!!
I just can't stand people who think that just because they have the title and reputation, they can have the right to use and manipulate people just as they like.
WE are human beings too!! We have our limits as well!!! We have our rights!! We have feelings!!
So fake! Totally fake!!
Totally discouraged!!!
Home Sweet Home
I AM HOME!! So glad to be home, even though I'm back to attend a counseling course. Getting really stressed up at work. Seem to be taking quite some time for me to adjust to my responsibilities there. I don't even have much time for myself at all. It's just WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK!!
It's not even 2 months and I'm feeling the pressure. In fact, I almost breakdown today. Been taking it in and pretending as though it does not affect me. Yet, I know I'm just avoiding it.
I do hope and MUST hang in there and finish this race!! Not only to simply just finish it...but to finish it with a smile on my face! =)
It's not even 2 months and I'm feeling the pressure. In fact, I almost breakdown today. Been taking it in and pretending as though it does not affect me. Yet, I know I'm just avoiding it.
I do hope and MUST hang in there and finish this race!! Not only to simply just finish it...but to finish it with a smile on my face! =)
Work as RA
It's already the beginning of October. Since my last entry till today, all I've been doing is my RA work. Waking up at 6-630 every morning, I need to reach the general office (GO) to punch my card by 8am. As the long hand reaches 12 and the short hand reaches 5, my last trip to (GO) to punch out. In between, it's in and out of the GO, my Prof's room and the RA room.
Work was at the peak after our 1st RUGS meeting on the 14th till after Raya. Then, it actually slowed down for one day. The next day, it was peak time again as me and my colleagues got to prepare a poster for the Seminar Hasil Penyelidikan (SHP). This poster in making is a real challenge to me as its my first time doing one. Made lotsa mistakes on the content, which I had to keep polishing as my Prof edited.
For RUGS, thank God we have passed through one of the major hurdle, SAMPLING!! The job was tedious. It took us about a week to get the sampling done, which has 10% left to be completed. Now, it's the questionnaires. Obtaining permissions from authors and also translating it to BM. It's another half-tedious job to get some of the unfound questionnaires.
Another thing on my hand is my own thesis topic. I'm LOST at this. I've lost my direction and I'm to come out with a research proposal within 3 weeks as a fulfillment for SPS3999, a 3 credit compulsary course.I do need to find my way back ASAP!!
Not only for my own thesis, but I've got to write the Chap 1 - Chap 3 for the project itself as well. A heavy responsibility for me. Got to read up a lot..and I do mean A LOT!!!
So, sorry if my updates are slow. Really trying to catch up with my RA work and at the same time, to find time for my sweetie and my sister. And also to catch some air to breathe.
FYI, everyday after work, I go for dinner, I come back and bathe..and you'll find me on my bed sleeping till the next day. Don't know why since I started working, my body gets so tired till I sleep like a log each night. Unable to finish my work. =(
That's all the time I have now. Toodles! ^.^
Work was at the peak after our 1st RUGS meeting on the 14th till after Raya. Then, it actually slowed down for one day. The next day, it was peak time again as me and my colleagues got to prepare a poster for the Seminar Hasil Penyelidikan (SHP). This poster in making is a real challenge to me as its my first time doing one. Made lotsa mistakes on the content, which I had to keep polishing as my Prof edited.
For RUGS, thank God we have passed through one of the major hurdle, SAMPLING!! The job was tedious. It took us about a week to get the sampling done, which has 10% left to be completed. Now, it's the questionnaires. Obtaining permissions from authors and also translating it to BM. It's another half-tedious job to get some of the unfound questionnaires.
Another thing on my hand is my own thesis topic. I'm LOST at this. I've lost my direction and I'm to come out with a research proposal within 3 weeks as a fulfillment for SPS3999, a 3 credit compulsary course.I do need to find my way back ASAP!!
Not only for my own thesis, but I've got to write the Chap 1 - Chap 3 for the project itself as well. A heavy responsibility for me. Got to read up a lot..and I do mean A LOT!!!
So, sorry if my updates are slow. Really trying to catch up with my RA work and at the same time, to find time for my sweetie and my sister. And also to catch some air to breathe.
FYI, everyday after work, I go for dinner, I come back and bathe..and you'll find me on my bed sleeping till the next day. Don't know why since I started working, my body gets so tired till I sleep like a log each night. Unable to finish my work. =(
That's all the time I have now. Toodles! ^.^
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