this time kl trip, it's a total mess and a few decisions made. why?
1. got 'kicked' out of the house because of our fault...we didnt pay the full deposit. so, he rented it out at a higher price to a person who wants the whole house, where as we only rent the rooms. a big disappointment which leads to emotional distress.
2. read a topic in utar cf forum that pierced my heart, leading to spiritual thirst, but not being quenched somehow, that leads to lose of faith.
3. lack of love and trust towards the big guy, which led to a tiring night of thinking...thinking of the mess in my life....and realising that i dont want to lose this one special person.
4. unfortunately i hurt that one special person...yet, i dont know how to say it....
5. friends? what the heck bout friends when you need them the most?
6. looking for a job for next semester...somewhere nearby where ever i'm living.
7. still looking for a place to stay...
8. decided to stop going for cf next semester...please...cf peeps...dont ask me anything bout it. when it's time to tell, i'll tell. dewgem-->i'll e-mail you bout it later.
9. respect vs. promise? i choose respect. thanks for respecting me for who i am.
10. head knowledge is nothing without the heart knowledge...just like a body without the soul.
11. clement-->if He's real, He will show Himself to me, right? i'll wait for that day...but for the time being, 'the greatest is love' has no meaning to me.
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