Gee..I finally broke down as year 2 semester 3 student yesterday. That adds up to 4 breakdowns per semester within 5 semesters. Seems like a cycle that every semester I would breakdown.
However, I choose to stop it since last semester. I choose to go through assignments with a more positive attitude and positive thinking.
For this semester, I did try my best to change the way I handle assignments. I tried to communicate with the group, getting things done earlier. Yet, it has failed me. It made me mentally tired, hence, leading on to emotionally breakdown.
Imagine breaking down by the roadside where cars pass by, people walking by the sidewalk. It was to that extend this time. But I'm still grateful that no panic attacks occur. Though falling sick with fever or asthma is like a symptom for assignment stress, it's way better that it has medication to cure.
Not only that, had a sudden breakdown too in front of my sweetheart and my roommate till I couldn't even tell them what happened. Just cried it all out, having them to comfort and soothe me without knowing what happened. To me, they didn't have to talk at all. Simply by being there for me, giving me a hug and a pat on my head or shoulder, is all that's needed.
It is a process that I have to go through, the ups and downs of assignment. And I thank Him that I still have Him to rely on no matter what. And that my identity is in Him and not on the people around me.
Hoping that the following 2 more semester of my degree study will be a better one with hope for more positive changes. =)
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