Lately, just can't helping depressed without reasons at all. It comes & goes just like the rain. There are times when one can predict when the rain is coming by the sound of thunders or the strokes of lightning, but there are times as well when one can never predict the timing of the rain. The same goes with this feelings of depression. At times, it can be predicted. The trigger to it can be known. But most of the time recently, the trigger is no where to be found and is difficult to be predicted.
Most people are afraid of the thunder and lightning. Some just don't even bother what's going on around them. But very few who actually would stop what they are doing, going to the window, and appreciating the noise of the thunder and enjoying the brightness of the lightning.
When it rains, most people who are not prepared for it, they get wet, sometimes dirty. Everything is in a mess. But very few unprepared people will enjoy being drained wet and dirty, being as messy as possible. In fact, they find joy in being such a situation. For most people who are prepared for the rain, they couldn't bother much. They just think of themselves, trying to keep themselves dry and keep proper. Very few prepared people who would actually share that comfort, spreading their blessing of being dry. They dont mind getting a little wet, just as long as the person who's being drowned in the rain is saved from their misery.
Rainbows sometimes come after the rain. Not most of the time after a rain that one can actually spot a rainbow. Spotting 2 rainbows at the same time, is even more difficult. When there's a rainbor, most people just move on with their lives without noticing the rainbow. Only very few people who would pause a while, search for that rainbow, notice it, hence, take a moment there to enjoy the view of the rainbow, wondering how it got there, taking the time to be grateful for that short moment the rainbow appears.
The same goes with our life. Whether the rain is like feelings of depression, whether the rain is like problems in our life, whether the rain is like traumatic events that haunt us, whether the rain is like the past we want to let go. Sooner or later, the rain would stop. No matter how heavy or light the rain can be, it is the rain that gives life to the plants in the forest that is being taken care of. We tend to always complain that when it rains, it's so troublesome. But why cant we instead, thank God that it rained? To see the other perspective of rain? Are our minds too crowded till we have tunnel vision? Even when one has tunnel vission, there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Otherwise, it wouldnt be called a tunnel.
Speaking of all this, at this point of time, I admit, i'm having that tunnel vission. Not seeing things in many different angles. Just looking at it at one side of the angle. Bring me out of that tunnel. Let me see that there's many ways to get out of that tunnel. Dont just leave me there in the dark, not knowing where to go. The light will always be there, I know. And I know that I have to search for it. But will you be there with me to go through this dark and scary tunnel? Will you care enough not to just leave me there and getting myself more lost in that tunnel? Of all the people that i know, I want you to be the one going through it together. But do you want to be that person? All I need now from you is a response. A word, a sentence, any clear indication that you will be that person to go through it together with me no matter how heavy or light the rain may be.
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