EIGENWELT

"What's Eigenwelt?", you may ask.

It refers to one's relationship with oneself, a mode experienced by 'being-in-the-world' individuals. To live in Eigenwelt means to be aware of onself as a buman being and to grasp who we are as we relate to the world of things and to the world of people ( Feist & Feist, 2006, Theories of Personality).
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As I was reading up for my finals, came across 2 interesting questions about this Eigenwelt. First, how is this other person a part of my life? Second, what characteristics of mine allow me to love this person?
This 2 questions sparked my interest as my mind was boggled about my relationship with the dear prince.

How is he a part of my life? Will put this in an illustration of a painter, painting to create a jigsaw puzzle. God, is of course the painter. The different colours are people and experiences existing in the big picture. Some people and experiences add colours to the picture, where as some may spoil the picture, which is then corrected to look beautiful. When the picture is dry and made into pieces of jigsaw, the pieces also represent people and experiences that we are much aware of as the colours are already dry. The pieces are the ones we choose to remember. Hence, the prince is one of the beautiful and bright colour painted in that big picture, and being some of the pieces of jigsaw.

What characteristics of mine allow me to love him? Honestly, I have no idea. It really is God's miracle wonder that allows me to love him. He may be childish, yet he's mature in thinking. He may be seen as an embarassment when he acts silly, yet it is such a joy that he puts a smile and laughter when he acts silly. One character that I can be sure of is patience. Acceptance too is another character that I'm still learning that allows me to love him for who he really is. Most importantly, it is love itself from my King, that allows me to love him despite of his flaws and downs in this relationship.

Guess I'm just comforting myself with what's been going on recently in the relationship. =)