MAJOR & MINOR MATTERS

Currently, still in the midst of finals. Another 3 more papers to go. One tomorrow, one on Friday and the last one next Monday. So far, for the past 2 papers, actually focused on different topics which did not come out in the finals. But I thank God I was able to remember a few things and was able to answer the questions. What ever the outcome is, I know that I have done my best. Not going to compare to others and stress myself out. In fact, I enjoy studying for finals this time. Guess I have found back the joy and motivation to study. Not to compete with my peers and being the best...BUT to gain more knowledge and being the my best.
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Another 3 weeks left till 1016. Can put it that the dance is a quarter ready. At least the ending part is done. Supposed to be the beginning, right? Well...when the inspiration came to me to this dance, I was not confident at all. I was afraid that I would fail in the sense that will not have the permission from David, no support from dancers...But how wrong I was. In fact, David encouraged me to do it..and the dancers, I thank God for each and everyone of them (Jacky, Justin, Phoebe, Rachel & Hui Mei)..not forgetting Jia Jun & Paul. They have helped me so much in helping choreograph the dance and being commited in it. Two people having the same vision for costumes, for the dance arrangements...that is so SUPERB. I can only testify of His amazing annointing towards us as we practice together, having fun. So, got to 'jia you' as there's not much time left.
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Hmm...one of my roommate will be shifting out this weekend. Happy? Sad? Neutral? I will have to say that I'm sad happy. Why? Just recently, had a conflict with her. Better not say much here. A lot has happened and I have broken down because of this. But as long as I know where I stand, I'll be alright as I have friends going through it together with me.
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One day before my first paper, am glad that I went out to meet up with a few friends. Able to meet up with my best friend, Kerry, my godsister, Jein, my cousin, Cher and even Amanda, whom I've not met like since I was in Form 6. Had so much fun bringing up memories. Happy ones, sad ones, funny ones...it's just so great to catch up with them. Not forgetting, the initial reason I went was to meet my dearest godsister's boyfriend. Hmm..forgot his name already. Not good with names. Although I had to rush off, the moment spent together was sweet.
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Am I getting thinner? Each time I return home, my parents will be commenting that I have lose weight. Only once did they say I put on weight (probably because of what I wore that time). However, yesterday, when I went out lunch with my mum(who came up for the weekend for a friend's wedding dinner) and elder sis, same comment was given. In fact, they said I was way thinner than before. Is it because they have not seen me for such a long time? The last time they saw me was on my birthday, which was 3 weeks ago. So, how can I lose so much weight just in that 3 weeks? If my dad sees I'm way thinner now, I'm done for. He is sure to nag at me, asking me to eat properly. Ever since both my parents and both my sisters saw me getting anxiety attack at my cousin's wedding last semester, they have been more concern over than they used to. My parents keep asking me to relax, taking my studies easy, don't stress myself out so much, eat properly, bla bla bla. In a way, I dont get pressure from them, and I dont pressure myself because of them. But in another way, dont really like my parents to worry bout me. Will leave it to Him.
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Relationship?? Been hearing a lot of stories from friends bout their relationship, who likes who, want to chase this girl, bla bla bla. One thing I learned though from a friend from the recent night chats we've been having... "Happiness comes with hurt & pain in the package". I find that quite true. Not forgetting this whole month, in youth, the topic will be Mr & Mrs Right. More to find out what's there in a relationship.
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My personal relationship with my dear prince. All I can say is that to me, we are drifting apart. Affection is missing, time spend together is getting less. My expectations for him are high, no denying that. Me comparing him to my ex, no denything that too. Lots have happened. But I do want to have faith that we can still love each other in spite of what we are going through. From the start, I do know that maintaining a relationship is not easy. But if we go through it together, I believe we'll be able to overcome this obstacle.
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Oh yeah...just want to apologise to my kor-kor for ffk-ing him at the very last minute. Had a feeling that I should stay on in church that night. At first, I thought I'd regret. But He proved me wrong. I told Him, "If you want me to be here, then You do something in my heart. Touch my heart as I obey You to be in church." And indeed, He did touched my heart. Although many was being healed through faith and prayer, standing there as a catcher, was refreshing to me. Just that simple act of standing there, being prepared to catch people, praying with the Holy Spirit, that is more exciting. =) Sorry ya, kor!! Hope you had fun!
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Schedule for this week. Tomorrow after paper, dance practice in church. Friday, youth prayer meeting. Either Wednesday or Thursday, suppose to meet with Kerry. Sat & Sun, as usual. That's all. God bless you peeps who reads my blog!!!