what a scary nightmare that i had last night...actually..the nightmare wasnt that scary...but the point that i understood it and i could interpret the nightmare is SCARY. i couldnt sleep last night..was lying on my bed, having my mind wondering away, thinking bout something....and before i realised it...i was dreaming a horrible dream that someone i love (cant remember who is was)...in fact, everyone that i love..became bats and vampires...and this one person who became a bat...actually flew to and bite me at my neck...and i could still remember that it was so 'gelifying'...the feel of the 'skin' and the bite made me gasping for air...then, i woke up gasping for air too with ruffy's mouth at my neck...yeah..that part was funny...having my doggy's mouth just at the part where the 'bat' bite me...
the point it...I UNDERSTOOD THE DREAM!! not exactly understood it but i could interpret it...it's like everyone around me...seems perfect at first...but at the end...they all just so not perfect and still have sins controlling them...and that someone i love who turn into a bat is like the devil...who knew my weak point...and attacked it...till i was gasping for air...and it already did happen...which made me wonder...what is He trying to tell me?? that He sent those peeps that i love to attack me?? what ever for? they cant be working for satan, right? how is it then that He puts trials and temptations into our life? how does it relate to satan being the person behind those attacks? in the bible, there is a verse bout Him not putting us into temptations that we cant bear, and that He'll provide a way out when we fall into it, right? how does that make sense? perhaps i'm just crapping bout this...feeling kind of confused since the nightmare...couldnt really sleep after that...
it's my turn to wonder now why is it that He made the plans go so well at first, then all of a sudden...the plan just went headwire...like what a cf peep said in her blog...reasons that dreams fall apart...sweet dreams and nightmares just have to come together. nightmares that destroy the dreams and crush a person down whether physically, emotionally or spiritually. and in the bible, we go through such trials and happenings to encourage some other person who may be going through it..to share our testimony to them...that's why He allow us to go through such rough times...but i still dont get it...wait..i do get it...too much head knowledge is no good at all...it's the heart knowledge that makes us grow..unfortunately...i dont have the heart knowledge to fully understand all this...argh...crapping again...in a confused state now perhaps...sign of i'd better stop typing... ^.^
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