Over the Limit

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She is too MUCH!!! I honestly can't take it any more. I admit that I may be at fault or I may be irrational. But all that has happened this week, it's more than I can bear.

Monday --> I was supposed to be working away from office as I had to send my mum to some place in PJ. I did mention that I'd be working. It's NOT an off day. That morning, she just have to send an email about leave record. Here's what she wrote in her so sucky and terrible English:
Attached is please find a leave record that we need to have since before. As understood 'working from home' or 'away from office' is a concept related to work and is an arrangement that I would issue personally, not based on request. We have inserted this in our 2010 schedule. Nonetheless, it looks like it happens only when I am away, I like to mention here that I may consider it other times as I see fit. Other than this, we will consider it as an official leave. So far, I have no record on leave, thus I have attached one here. Lets recalled how many days we have got left from January 2010, please forward this info back to me. Tqvm.
Right after I sent my mum, I went straight to office and it didn't even occur to her that I actually said I'd be working away from office.

Tuesday --> Nothing much happened. Thank God for that.

Wednesday --> The WORST and most GERAM working day ever. I had a terrible flu that day and wasn't feeling well at all. My colleagues kept asking me to see the doctor and get an MC. But it is my nature not to see the doctor unless it got worst and ongoing for not a reasonable time. At the same time, I can't be taking off as I can sense that she is not happy with me after Monday's incident. In the afternoon, I was wearing two thick jackets and still felt really cold. I knew that was it. So, I SMSed her. This was what the conversation:
Prof, can I take half day off today please. Will add on to the leave record.
Why?
Not feeling well.
Since she did not say yes or no, I waited till she reply..waited and waited...around 3ish, I saw her came online. I did not want to ask her again. So, I waited....till it was 5pm. As I walked pass her room, she was outside. And all she could tell me was...
Jun, tadi I was driving...so, didnt answer....
What the heck???? You came back to the office. You could have called the office or reply my sms right? I was totally suffering from the high temperature in the office, waiting for your reply out of respect...and you just totally ignore me. When she said those words, I really felt betrayed. Not even reaching the main office to punch out, tears were already welling up my eyes. Got in the car..and that's it...burst into tears...feeling so betrayed, so angry, so disappointed...so numb...What the heck of a person are you???

Thursday --> Today, I found out one enumerator whom we have not paid yet needed cash to pay school fee which will be due tomorrow and another enumerator who needed cash too. In my bank, it's just 2 digits now. Have already taken out almost RM 5k+ to pay other enumerators who needed cash. If I still had cash in the bank, I'd taken out for them. But I don't. So, fine...I wanted to ask her to transfer some cash to me first till we can finally get the payment, but I had class. So, my colleague went to ask her. And you know what she replied? It went something like this (directly typed out by that colleague):
wyChiah© says:
oo.
ard 3+ i go to her room let her sign the notice,
then i said, prof can u transfer 3000 to jun,
she wanted to ask u but she has class to attend
is for the enumerator
bcoz the enumerator wan to pay his tuition fee..
...
then prof show this face
"u mean me? transfer to jun?"
i said: yes
then she said: hmm chiah this month tak boleh
quite tight..
bcoz dah bayar sheereen rental in australia rm5000
plus the australi trip spent a lot
...
then i was quite shock.. so i said: hmm then tak pe la, kami tengok nak pinjam dgn orang lain..
she ask: pinjam dgn siapa?
i said: tak tau la, tengok la, bilik ra mana ada org kaya, pinjam la..
... ...
The End~
What the heck!!! When I heard that, I was like...not surprising at all. Kinda expected that she'd say 'tak ada duit'. Thanks to my colleagues, they'll be forking out their money to pay those two enumerators first.

I'm tired..really tired..when I felt like giving up yesterday, my daily reading bible verse mentioned bout love and faithfulness. To stay loyal even when we don't feel like it. That's what kept me from going into her office today and giving her my resignation letter.

I just pray that I'll be able to survive this.