Due to me being MIA since Nov, this is going to be a long post to update a
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Christmas Party
Christmas party was held at my place together with my colleagues. Made pongteh and other dishes. Really had fun. A poem for them for that joyous occassion.
Ding ding dang, ding ding dang,
6 girls 3 boys, partying on christmas,
3 lovely models, 2 pro photographers,
1 cook, and 3 tiang lampus...
Gift exchange is a must,
As christmas is a season for giving,
Yet, only girls took part.
A skipping rope for exercise,
A pot to cook maggie mee,
A notebook to write notes..duh-uh
A water bottle to quench your thirst.
A pair of earrings, dangling and shiny,
A long long foldable shelf to store your clothes...
Yet, chocolates for guys,
To sweeten their mouth,
To continue the spirit of giving,
As they sweet talk to their girls.
Christmas
Christmas eve was spoiled as I had to work half day due to a meeting that I had to attend (elaborated in work topic). However, I was glad to be back home spending christmas with my family. Made pai tee for my family, uncle, aunties and cousin as well.
Presents?? Received but no giving. Not my culture somehow which is my new year resolution to change that culture. >.<
What did I get?
1) A new black long purse from my mum and sisters [finally got a purse]
2) A skipping rope from my colleague [elaborated christmas party topic]
3) A barbie doll [thanks for giving ya.. >.<]
New Year
New year eve was still working
Next day, we went to watch Avatar 3D at Sunway, which people were saying that the effects were cool and nice. Yet, I totally disagree. Watching 3D is just like watching 2D..but watching 2D is even nicer. After the show, headed to Kuala Selangor for our next agenda.
Next agenda was crabs and fireflies. Sadly, no crabs were sold in any shops as somehow, not in stock. So, had seafood without crabs. Really enjoyed dinner though
Room Spring Cleaning
Yippie!! Rearranged my room furnitures and I like it. >.<>clearing
Work
A topic that is just unbearbable to share actually. But I do know that there are some concern friends who are really concern in wanting to know what's been going on in my work that I keep not wanting to talk about. So, here goes as I randomly ramble and may not make any sense to you.
First, progress on research work is slowing down. A can be noticed mistake that can save up our time was not noticed earlier..and shooting it at us for us not taking initiative. This was what spoiled my christmas. The first time ever that really fired me up from within with much anger, disappointment, and failure feeling. I do admit that it is my fault for not arranging stuff properly. Yet, I have already passed it to you one day before for you to DOUBLE check, which you definitely DID NOT go through it till the meeting. With all the underground meetings, you never involved her in and you expect her to know why we change certain things in the questionnaire? You did not even informed her of the changes.
I decided to love you but not your actions or decisions..yet, you are making it so difficult to love you. In fact, you
Though I keep telling myself that God has given me this impossible made possible oppurtunity, I will not quit...you make me want to give up even more. Your personal work is NOT for us to do. With such a status, the responsibility is in YOUR hands..NOT mine.
And simply just because you are her supervisor, it DOES NOT MEAN that you can take her data set!!! She has to relunctantly give you her data set...just to save her ass from getting burnt or whacked. You claimed that you treat us like your daughters..but do you really treat us like that?? Yea...you make your daughter do your personal work as well..which I truly pity her...no freedom. Yet, did you even consider our life?? Our life is NOT merely for you and you alone. We DO NOT belong to you. We DO NOT work 24/7 like you. We want our rest.
We are so pressured by your expectations and the HUGE work load. Always on the run. Now that your health is slowing you down, even more work is given to us. Yet, I still WANT to choose to love you. But can I?? After all that you've done???
For sure I have made my mistakes. Both major and minor..which I only have myself to blame. Yet, how can you hear a clapping sound with just one hand clapping??
I do wish I can stop working under you. To be set free. Yet, I've much to learn about research work.
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Sweetie,
Thank you for just being there for me. I know it hurts when I'm not saying a word about what I'm going through. I know you're sad when I am sad. I know you want me to be happy. And you always want what's best for me. Yet, you are so patient, never giving up. Waiting for me to pour it all out to you, sharing the joys and also the pains together. Though I am sad that now you are not here with me, I know you're always in my heart and I'm in yours.
没有一个字可以表达我对你的爱 is definitely true as actions speak louder than words. The only thing I can do to let you know that I love you...is to be strong and happy. To eat slow, to walk slow, to talk slow, to laugh slow. All for my own good. Thank you sweetie for bringing the best out of me!
Missing you with lotsa love...
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