Another Big Step into Adulthood

In the mode of shifting all my things to a new place known as....TAMAN DESAMINIUM.
It's been a crazy period to find a place so soon..
Having my parents worried bout the new place..
Having to find a female housemate as requested by my mum..
Having to buy some necessities to furnish the place..
The financial income..

Everything is happening so fast..
On big decisions after another..
Deciding to further study is one that I will not regret..
But the place?
I seem to like it there..
Though I have to sacrifice my freedom..
In a way that I can't go to places as there is no public transport to my place..
Besides, it's not that convenient as well..
Nearest food stall is a 5 min drive away..
Yet, I still like the place..
Hope to furnish it with a homely feeling..
That's what that is important to me..

But, I face rejection from my parents..
They want me to just rent a room..
Sigh...
Am I going to regret the decision I made?

Another big decision to be made..
Serious or not?
Committed or not?
I don't want to fool around and give up half way..
I want to go through it all the way..

Looking for a job is another big step..
What kind of job?
Can I obtain the scholarship?
How am I going to get some income?
I can't be depending on my parents all the time right?

My mum keep saying.. "Leave it to the Lord"
Which I totally am..
Yet, I can't seem to release it all to Him..
At this minute I may have released it to Him..
The next minute I start thinking bout it..
Guess I have not released at all..

Well,
Whatever it is..
I'll just take one step at a time..
I don't want to be falling so badly till I can't even stand up..
Have a nice day!!