At the Verge of IT

I'm totally at the verge of IT!!

What IT?? you ask?

At the verge of...
--> breaking down
--> being depressed
--> giving up my study career
--> quitting my job
--> losing control of myself

It's been a TOUGH TERRIBLE SUCKY...no words to describe day.
It's been a discouraging day.
It's been a disappointing day.
It's been an upsetting day.
It's been down in the valley...
Yet, wanting to be at the top...
To cry and scream my heart out...
Till my heart harden...

I seriously ponder...
What am I doing here?
Where am I exactly headed with this path that I've chosen?
Will I be regretting at the end of this journey?

Or am I going to be...
...proud of myself?
...tough?
...smarter?
...a better person?

I can only ponder...
And continue to pray for...
...strength.
...patience.
...endurance.
...and most of all...LOVE.