Crossroad

I just wonder..what am I going to do?

I know that my previous post is kinda..FIRED UP. Still am a little. With the issue that is going on at the moment, just can't seem to keep my cool.

Do I want to avoid conflict? Or do I want to mess it up?
Do I want to think for the peace of others? Or do I want what's best for my masters?
Do I want to keep putting on a mask? Or do I get all straight forward?
Do I want to keep a distance? Or do I want to get acquainted?

It's really tough being obedient. I'm awed with how all those bible heroes managed to obey Him. It's so not easy. Probably because I am a difficult and rebellious child. But am learning to obey my authority, which is so freaking tough.

Inside of me right at this moment..is to SCREAM!!!! Just want to let it all out instead of keeping it in. Can't seem to get it out.

All I can do now is to keep reminding myself...STAY STRONG!!