Am I That Silly?

Am I that silly to work as a research assistant for Prof?
Am I that silly to take all the workload and just earn RM ****?
Am I that silly to have to take responsibility of her personal responsibility?
Am I that silly to put up with her nonsensical conversation?
Am I that silly to put on a face that I don't even know myself?
Am I that silly to allow her to put so high expectations?
Am I that silly to go against my standards in life and live not in peace?
Am I that silly to give up my time just for her?
Am I that silly to wast my effort and energy in doing something that does not interest me?

AM I REALLY THAT SILLY??